My India

I am feeling very low and sad. I am feeling very very angry as all the people of India. I am actually crying....

I know all the reasons , I know the short term reactions, long term reactions, grass root level work and all funda.

I know media is bad, govt is useless, terrorist are bastards. and all !!

I can't see the channel. I can't hear the news. I can't forget the things. I can't control myself.

My dear country,

I want my country to be the best in the world !! We will do all the things required to make our country the best.

Can we make the human chain and go inside the taj in front of terrorist and finish the episode ?

Do we have that passion for our country ?

Will I do that ?

Just now i can't think strategically neither intellactually.

Just now i can only feel the emotions.

And i am felling very bad !! Very very bad !!

Event 3 + 4

Event 3 : Wall climbing

I did 11 m (average performance) while IIM L guy did 13 m. SO i didn't outperformed others as i was planning to. Still we were at second position and IIML holding the top position.

{MyMind :1] Mental preparation is tough one. I was optimistic for 24 hrs and lost my focus for 2 seconds and lost the game.

2] Play for fun is better strategy for me than play for win (at least for me. Then only i can perform)

3] Now i will start working on fitness .(Not going to happen)}

Event 4 : Raft

This was going to be decider event.  Even team standing 6 had chance. We were knowing that who ever would make first raft was going to win. We made it first but then we paid cost for paying less attention to structure and making hurry. As raft got fractures(:)) in between and we lost the opportunity to grab the high point blue balls, Still after initial setback we performed well and we got the overall 3 rd position.

{My mind: 1] Raghav and me had contrast approaches to face rafting. There was not any point in fighting. Should i follow or be leader ? (very big dilemma)

2] Should i be happy for whatever our team achieve or should do analysis  of mistakes.

3] No point in back talks after events.

4] I am finding external locus of control } 

 

Today's writing is desperate writing. Not getting feel to write. So stopping. !

event 2 : MAP reading

Today's second event was somewhat liked treasure hunt added to it map reading and biking ! also trade off between points. We played according to our strength. there was rule that one would crack the puzzles sitting in the room and other two would ride the bike and finding different places using map and clues from one sitting in room. We played on our strength. Saloni was in the room solving puzzles and Raghav joined me on bike. I was riding bike (my strength :) hi hi hi;  ), Raghav asking addresses. We understood today that we don't know Jamashedpur beyond Bistupur . So sad !! But it was advantageous to us. One time i missed the return road and luckily we got one place of 400 points.

Any way now we are at position 2 from earlier 5 th position. We should win tomorrow.

{My mind- 1] Saloni is the best at solving puzzle. So she should be one in the room. It worked :) she solved all 7 clues. Event gave us large push to recover.

2] i am bad at solving puzzle. But actually i was able to contribute lot in solving puzzle. Also i had nice initiative for deciding strategy.

3] Now i am feeling i will do the wall climbing and will  also play major role in driving raft.We should contribute on our strength. }

WE should win tomorrow. 

Event 1 : hurdles

Event 1 is over now.(hurdle race)

We had average performance.

there were hurdles that are used by miltry for its training.

Three of us failed in rope climbing event. Saloni tried hard for Tarzen jump and mine crossing. But no success.

{My mind - 1] I should have done rope. But when i saw first time i felt i would not. That hammered me, I didn't tried hundred percentage. 2] Saloni is tough girl - She tried really hard. 3] Wall climbing is with 300 point. I should do that at any cost. 3] Power is my strength in the team. I should have done rope also should have help team more. It is all mind game. This is learning, Now i will pass through artificial wall climbing at any cost. 4] There were many times in Jnana Prabodhini we had opportunity to do rope climbing. But i never did it. So there will be many skills which can be useful in life for future. Never avoid taking new experiences.}

Second event is treasure hunt. will start at 1 pm. I am expecting my team to perform well.

SAloni and me are thinking that still we will be the winner. While Raghav thinks "Bolane se kya hota hai, Karake dikhana chahiye" :)

Adventure Questa -mind journey diary

I have participated in adventure questa competition in college. Its 2 day competition. I am writing this after our first event of first day has been completed. I got one idea to write journey of thought process i will undergo through whole event.

1] It all started with one day Saloni asking me to participate. I was least interested before. But then we formed the team and participated (Team name AGNI ). {My mind completely dispassionate}

2] There were three member Raghav- Saloni- Gaurav. Round one was online quiz. Raghav was out that day. Probably Saloni was going to be out of town that time. I prepared least dispassionately calling Hari for help. Even Saloni was there at that time of quiz. And they both playing different tricks attempted quiz. {My mind- 1] i don't know anything in nature. I can't contribute. 2] there were 95 teams . Out of which 6 were to be selected. So NO CHANCE !. 3] ok bhai, nahi select hote then three days holiday.What big deal.}. I was able to contribute in 3 Q out of 18.

3]Most surprisingly our team got shortleast. Me and Hari were in dancing state.{My mind- 1] one who expect least can perform better. as he is free of any pressure.}

 

4] Xlenc team try to convince us that you should replace your one member as no other selected team has any girl as member. We decided to go with same team. {My mind-1] its ok to take Bharat or Sreenath. 2] No way, Its Saloni who innitiated the thing. secondly her brain will be our strength. We will have advantage.}

5] One day before I send one mail trying to inspire team. Tried to create common dress code for team, punch line for team. We even searched for some management games. and wall climbing and rafting clips. {My mind -1] We can win. 2] My strength is to inspire team. So i should take initiative.} I thought it worked.

i love this moments !!

I am totally excited for my future 3 hours. It is going to be a lot of fun. generally people says that the B-schools are very busy And people dont find a time. I too tell like this to my parents many time.(Why i don't know). But really speaking i have a lot of time.

I am currently lying on the bed. It is a slight cold outside. I had one nice glass of a horlick milk. Now  i have some packets of "Moong Dal" and "pea nut".Adding to that flavour, some milk chocklates (total spending  rs. 20). I am enjoying a some oldie music on the Dhingana.com. And after this preparation, its time to read the book "Sidhartha". Hey, what else the beauty can be ?

The life  is like one canavas where you paint your colours. You need to choose your own colours.Generally people looks around for a differnt colours and then copy that colours in their canvas. I have decided that i will only not choose my colours but also will  decide my own shades of it.Only a restriction i will have is that my colours will not be costly. Or better say if possible self made.I dont want to waste my joyful time of painting in earning money and buying common colours. !!! For me as above said the colours exist there already. I will just catch them.

I think the  Freedom will be the my most prior value.lastly my strengths are visionary,learner, activer (how ?), related and connected according to one test.(hi hi hi... :))

Acceptance of jealousy

Professor Sreenivasan classes are real learning. Today he asked people that is there any body in class who's never experience jealousy. there were 2-3 people. And then he concluded that accepting and expressing jealousy is the way to overcome the problems that are created by wrong path followed many of the times after feeling of jealous. I think accepting and expressing is the most key step for any mind development( Manasik Vikasana ). That is one of the purpose of this blog.
It is really fun now listening the " dwandwa " between E. M. Rav sir and Sreenivasan sir classes.
It always remind me of one book "Durdamya" where Lokmanya tilak explains this type of friendly fight between professor's in Fergusson college. It is really nice.
I should work on following things now.
1] Understanding the individual differences.
2] Focusing on strengh of any other person and compensating foor weakness.
Both the steps are very important for working as OB researcher or Prof (Fundamental pricniple)
as well as working for non profit organization. In short my FUTURE !!!!

Strive for excellence

I am studying in XL. Our punch line is Excellence and Integrity. I am finding it difficult to perform on the both.
I am here as Fellow student. My each work and thought should be inline with this. College is paying me as scholar, My all actions and behavior should match this. Not anything wrong i have done (:)).But simply i am not totally focus.
Secondly, I should be ablel to perform all the minor tasks with perfection and should target the exxcellence. But it is not happening. It was so fascinating assignment given by Prof Gurunathan. We even thought on all aspects. We even worked hard. But due to laziness and "Chalata hai" approch we lost the ultimate fun which we could have gain if we had completed the assignment with perfection at each step.
I think,
Excellence = (step 1) passion +(step 2) hardwork + (step 3)Precision and perfection at each small steps.
Intigrity=step 1: knowing your mission.
step 2 :Flowing the mission throughout your body.

My strength that i lerant from this assignment was i love working on short term project work and generally in the team. I hope it can be same with long term project.

Today in Prof. Gurunathan's class i felt at one moment suddenly bad for not striving for excellence. When can be "I " like that what i want ?

I am going to read "Jonathen" immediately. I may get some new message !! :)

Orkut birthdays, Sreenath, Drucker, books and wonderful life

Ø I had previously thought that there is no point in sending the wishes through orkut as everybody else is knowing the birthday of that friend by the orkut reminder. Therefore all friends send the wishes to him and there is no value to your wish. But then today morning I suddenly realized that we wish on happy birthday not for our recognition but for actually wishing the one who’s birthday is it. So although 100 people may wish by orkut scrap, you should be one of them if your wish is by heart and not for getting you importance. I need to pure mind on this thing.
Ø Today my friend Sreenath ran 15 rounds on ground. It is high example of mental determination one should have. Without previous practice today he started running with the target of 15 rounds. After 3 round he was tired. Then with few breaks he completed 8. Then he had tea break then going back he completed remaining rounds. It is not good from medical point of view. But it is best achievement motivation I have seen in near past. He loves giving pain to his body. Hats off to my friend.
Ø Today I went to the library and read 4 books simultaneously. One was on “How to read a book” ?
I got nice stuff to think.
Books are of three type :
§ General (information based)
§ Useful for reading, but after reading you feels that you know more than what the book say.
You will feel that I have completed this one. And I will really never read it again.
§ Books which each new reading give new thinking to you. You think that book is growing with your mental growth. E.g. Geeta
Say, you have to go one island where there are no facilities, no human beings. Which 10 book you will take with yourself. ?
Ø I saw the movie “It is a wonderful life”. Nice movie which says there are no failures for one who has lot of friends. (No extra comments)
Ø Nonprofit organization although having more financial restrictions, have their functioning align to their mission statement. Vice versa for the business organization. Secondly the volunteers are getting replaced by the unpaid professionals these days. This is future trends for this sector.(Peter Drucker)

120 rupees= 90 pages

last two days were amazing, spending them in all spiritual places. right starting from AMOL's room(2 nd ramakrishna) to the actual place were Vivekananda meditated. I tried hard everywhere for mirracle to happen..but sometime it was cramp in leg, some bee trying to destract me, some kid running around me or sleep.. some or other reason avoided me to get that transition. Any way i tried hard.
whole three day story will be boaring to write.(although nice to experience). So i will write the last experience. While coming back , i decided not to spend money on any food.(actually i was short of money so i decided to test it). Next to me was sitting one man enjoying all the food whatever it came in my compartment. Whenever he stopped any seller, i had immensed desire to take that food. then i decided i will read the no. of pages equal to no. of rupees he would spent in entire journey. I had huge satisfaction after that and also great motivation. I finished 90 pages of book "practical spirituality" while that man spend amount= rupees 120. Whenever he finished one type of food, he had more desire for next type of food. While whenever he would finish one type of food, i had real joy of controlling my desire and real satisfaction of reading the book.
I learnt from this experiment that real joy is not in satisfying the desires but in postponing them or avoiding them. You can eat the pages (off course by reading) and have more joy than food.
some random thought i had during journey ehich i recollect are
1] Happiness requires money if you are in hurry. That is if you are master of time you can enjoy the happiness irrespective of money.
2] Auto takes rs 80 from XL to station (around 6 km), train takes rs 20 from tatanagar to khadagpur (around 140 km) and cycle rickshaw takes rs 40 from station to iit kharagpur (around 6 km). Nice economical thought to digest in recent days. I will write on this some other day.
3] you should be like railway. When you are running have full enthusiam, making lot of noise and cutting the winds and when you are still be like railway standing in yard.(i think i miss the idea which i had at that moment)
4] In india, women are always respected atleast while travelling in general class or buses.
5] People have immense faith in God in India. But they lack the faith in themselves. We should work out on this.
One more dream,
I should travell around the whole India for period of say 3 month.