advanced..50%

I am thinking about one thing from yesterday.

We went into market to take our photographs.. bill was 100.. and he called us to collect photographs after two hrs.. and then we paid him 50 rs in advance and decided to pay 50 afterwards..And then we felt afterwards that why don't we just trust others... Is he going to give us different photo than what we are ? Then why only 50% advanced ? And now he is going to do same thing with some other person... He will not give anything without advance.. and we are corrupting the world..

What are our assumptions on which we are working in this world ? If i start giving advance 100% with full trust, will that lead to exponential change of trust in this world..Someone need to start changing these assumptions of self-interest, rational, greedy human beings..Otherwise all our strategies will remain just surface level interventions.. We can just postponed the bad end of this world and without really making any big difference...

Can we just pay what Autowala wants without arguing.. Can we just not bargain in market... Can we just stop this system of security deposit for our own rental house.. Can we ?

atleast at some places, atleast at some locations, can we start increasing our faith and our trust in other human beings..?

One need to change his assumptions about this world and world will change.. We need to have correct design principles at place to evolve this cosmos in better world..

FAST

Experiencing my fast

I decided to keep one day fast to support the anti corruption bill. I am not aware of what this fight exactly is. But I really felt from my heart that this is some good cause – I should support. My consciousness said to me to follow it. As a student of leadership and OB, I am really doubtful whether Anna hazare has enough leadership qualities to read the situation and lead this movement..But at personal level I strongly felt that “goodness” within me should go on fast for one day to support this positive energy. And I did that …

When I was on fast – I learned so many things – I am classifying it at three level.

A] I had constant feeling that I am supporting some real good thing and some kind of positive wave is getting build up throughout the country. I can feel that I am part of this big system and some or other day I will contribute something to it. Although I was alone fasting at my place.. I was never alone !!

B] Then my consciousness told me that there is time yet to come when you can lead anything.. you are still small one learning on your own weakness..It reminded me of all the corruptions as an individual I carried out for this system. I decided never to bribe TC for ticket (which I had sometime), never to buy black ticket and never to save WAT by not having bill.. I decided to improve on these three things as my personal sankalpa’s to improve this system by individual efforts...

C] Then my consciousness told me to go further down. Who I am to think about system when – this “I” itself is corrupt.. It told me that systems will come and go.. what about you..? And I recalled all lies I had told to so many people so many times.. the burning hunger decided to burn my “corrupt I”.. I remembered – how much impure am i.. I decided not to lie those things which I am doing for so many days.. I can’t go back to each one and remove that.. but I can do to my close friends.. I never cleared NDA mains.. I never cleared IIT screening.. these were two most common lies - I was sharing in some different groups.

The hunger fire of one day fast connected me to system level, individual level and also something inside me..The human life is about making yourself pure.. it is about building ego and then dissolving it.. It is really beautiful journey..

By experiencing these Gandhi (More about Indian)way, My faith is surely increased now than the way I used to do only by reading or criticizing…

Either we get excited or we give it.. there can be always some path in between of "learning"..

Life is all about constant learning..

Locus

What a great day... India winning world cup...

I was watching it @ sports Dhaba in XLRI.. I was able to make some interesting observations and thus some food for thinking..

When Sachin was batting, one person was standing with his one leg on chair.. other person was constantly smoking and not giving even little space between two smokes..and there were so many other people who were thinking - it is because of them (by wearing same t-shirt, by sitting at particular location, by not watching, by doing some or other thing ) that Sachin was playing safely because of their action..:):).. And when Sachin got out, most of them really thought that it happened because of them...

I don't know how this thing will work out - if 1 billion people are responsible for Sachin's outcome :).. most difficult calculations for god..

But my point is something different..

In one direction,

Interesting most of these people - when it comes to their personal life - think that they can't do anything.. they don't have control over their own life..For Sachin to play, they will stand whole day on one leg without eating anything. but for their personal life, they are completely losers...

In other direction,

some of these people will consider their neighbors, friends, umpire, prime minister, calender date responsible for getting Sachin out.. .but in their personal life they will think everything happens because of them.. No external situation, force is responsible in their own case.. as if they have complete control over their life..

Point is either we think we have complete control over our life or we think we absolutely don't have...We never make perfect balance.. Happiness lies in pragmatic shifting of locus either to external or internal event..:)

When Sachin is playing, we do all the things to be happy, if he gets out we mostly forget our contribution and give credit to other person for changing his position.. When he is playing we think - it is because of t-shirt i am wearing.. :) Actually it is all about our perception to make ourselves happy.. Why not shift our locus pragmatically in our own life ? Live life happily.. Anyway - it is so complex, we are never going to understand it.. so use shifting of locus to live it peacefully..

LOVE

Mother has written about 4 kinds of love – a] you love some material for pleasure, b] you love someone in expectation of return love, c] you love someone till you are getting space to express it. There are no return expectations but you need some token, d] Divine love – where you just love…

Divine love is very easy to understand but difficult to apply & human love happens without any forced awareness but very difficult to understand… Why it is like this?

Initially I used to think possessiveness, security, desires, expectations, attachment and all such characteristics are associated with human love. These things create trouble and are absent in divine love. In divine love – it is just love. So instead of focusing on different object of love that is human and divine – I was thinking that process of love is different

I think love either emerges or creates feeling of security, possessiveness, expectations, companionship. These are part and parcel of the process which we called as love. Now problem is that actually human love can’t give you constant security, possessiveness, fulfillment of expectations…It is really very finite. Either time will get over, people will change, over the time intensity will decrease.. some or other thing will happen. So we are always in constant fear of losing these things that are acting as love. So either one of these things get over – that is security gets converted into insecurity, we lose possession, we lose our companion, we are not able to fulfill expectations and love creates trouble. Even if these things are there – fear creates trouble. Now in case of divine love – security, possessiveness, expectations, companionship everything is there. But you know now object is divine – infinite, permanent… there is permanent security, companionship and possessiveness. There are no chances of these things getting converted into opposite. There is no fear so divine love always gives you constant happiness and bliss.

Now I think divine love is not difficult to apply. It is same human love only object we have changed. Now there is no need to fear, it is going to give you joy full time. This realization also helps you to overcome fear in human love. It is finite one. So you start enjoying present moments and don’t get upset when it changes its form. We need to start loving and enjoying our company. We need to start loving divinity in nature and in other people. Once we have divine love, human love becomes very easy to understand. There is kind of peace and permanent happiness