So Gaya...

I am listening the song "so gaya...". I never pay attention to words. I always get influence by tune of the songs. this song create some emotions in me. (I can't explain what are that). Ok, below from my window i can watch couples in XL going for walk :) .

Is this bad or good ? Other than physical attraction, i dont believe in emotional dependancy theory. Supporters may argue that it is sharing but then why it is only with one particular ?

i dont know answer.At this point of time i purely feel that its dependancy. One should generate happiness by sharing with any body.

I want my philosophy of life as the one who is totally emotional independant but fully social.

As i will work with people (this is not answer for "why HR" in interview. ), i should be totally involve in them still away from the attachment. i should enjoy dettachment. I have all the best friends having girlfriends. They all have good girlfriends.(I mean to say, some of them may read this :).

One good movie "Into the wild" has one good sentence. I dont remember it exactly (as usual :))
but hero says one of his friend while leaving him that i will surely miss you. but i will enjoy the new experiences and people. So while leaving i will never be sad.
My test of emotional detachment is that, when we will complete two yrs in XL, my all regular MBA program friends will leave the institute. I want to say them "BYE " with full emotions still smiling.
And when i will back , i should start working immediately on OB research with full passion as if nothing has happened. And still in two year , i should be one with full of love and care.

I dont know such types of dreams are good or bad ? where they will take me ? but i will follow them.

LIFE

I am listening the best song "Tu jinda hai". Sitting on my bed. Watching out from my window, birds flying, sun ready to set, greenery all over the campus and very pleasent atmosphere.
what else is the happiness ? Yesterday night , we had long walk in nice cold , cup of coffee and long chat till 4.00 clock. What else one can have ?
Thing is that if you decide to be happy, you will find joy in whatever you are doing . Its really good feeling to be in such state.
Sreenath got placed in WWF . Nice thing is happened. Let everybody get what they want. Let the world be full of joy and happiness.

Diwali Celebrations at XLRI

This is first diwali without family. You understand the importance when you are away from it. But still XL is the best. We went to all faculty houses to eat different sweets. Everybody was greeting others and first time i found all with the real feelings. But their was some shade of sadness painted on it as everybody was missing someone. Festivals !! What it mean to society. It is very important part of society. We can't leave without festivals. I went to buy crackers. Our college spend around rs 10,000 on crackers. I found slum area children looking for scrap crackers out their. XL was lightened with thousand of diva's and 2 Km away 100 of people are thinking about their tomorrow's food. We have sweets and sweets till we are getting alergetic to it and on same time i found people on road sitting there without any food. Everybody in XL celebrating and still missing. GOD ! why it is like that ? What is the answer ? Is it wrong to have that question ? I cant be without celebrations. So XL diwali must. But same time i cant forget so many havenot people around me. I can't. If i decide to have balance, I will miss have world when i am with havenot's and i will feel sad for them when i am in the have world. What is solution ?
their is possibility for partition of emotions ? use you C drive for have world emmotions and vice versa. I will become the bridge and i will show the way out. I will be the one connecting the people..(ha ha ha this is line from some add , i think Airtel :)). But how ? God, give me the power to find the way.. WHY , HOW and WHEN ?

create your own currents...

When its Diwali outside all over the India, Xl is in the deep insecure feeling..Market is down and 180 students will compete for 60-70 prestigious companies. Everybody is under immense tension. Whether they will get placed first day or they will require to itfight for 6 days. Finally it will be difference of around 10,000 between two. I am thinking why i want to be away from this race

1] Because i am frighten for competition ?

2] I dont have abilities ?

Absolutely wrong !!

I believe in my director's theory. their are always 3 choices with you.

1] Flow with currents

2] Flow against currents

3]Create your own currents.

I am of type 3. I will create my own current. It doesn't matter me if i fail afterward. At least i have made my choice. And I believe that i will do anything what i want. Secondly why you should be so insecure. their is again one more theory

1] Go where their is scope.

2] Create the scope where you want to go.

I again believe in second theory. I will create the scope where i want to go. Really i should not care about others. I am the TIGER. why I should think of rats..? Oh.

I will be the king. Need to beat the LAZINESS. I want to create my shaolin school. !!!!

SHUBH DIPAWALI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shubh Dipawali

Today Hari and I went for cycling. Actually i wanted to buy one "Moti soap".See the brand and attachment created by moti soap. I remember the Moti first, symbol of Dipawali. So we were searching it in the market and firsttime I was very much angry on Jamashedpur because i didn't found Moti anywhere. :(
Anyway we met one ballon sailer small boy outside the moll. We took two baloons from him (rs. 10 ) and gift him back both. He was very happy. I started my Diwali celebrations in real joy. Whole credit to Sreenath as i just copied his idea.
I have one sandle soap with me. Sugat and me are going to share it. (Half- half). Although he is scientist, he follows good RUDHI (traditions). We are planning to wake up early and avoid NARAKA on holy morning of Diwali. Hope we will be successful in our tomorrows mission of AVOID NARAKA..

MY roomie(Gaurav) has bought some good DIVA's.. He is really good roomie. We both are going to study now.(I think we will be doing something else within 10 min.)

Help them who can be helped !!

Sreenath(he is just to sign out SIP and going for WWF , I am proud of him) and me were discussing the movie "into the wild" and one important point was that " you should help them who can be helped ". I had interview with "Vijay MAhajan" head of Basic bank for SIP. I am going to do summers in Marathavada. I will provide sustainable livelihood to some landless labours there. I am totally excited now. My friends are congratulating me as i am out of SIP. But i am happy because i made my choice. i was thinking that i will start working once i finish my research after 4 year. But now i have one point that i will start working in Zarakhand once i start my research simulteniously. Superb !!

thats it.. No new experience to write.

Oh , one more..I met one cycle repairer ..He had his store below one tree from last 16 year. Now tree has grown up large one. It was very interesting chat. these are the timmings i enjoy my life a lot. Actually I always !!

Creative tension

prof. Jomon discussed that we all work only under deadlines because of tensions. I got one good idea from that..We should able to generate creative tension in our life to win the laziness. Another way is to create rituals in our daily life so that we can conquer the laziness. By the way hari and me are trying to wake up early for last whole week but we are not. This is called as "Knowing but not doing". "knowing to doing"course has maximum demand in harward. :)
Today i attended seminar on action research on poverty allivation. There were 35 NGO representatives. Only 2 hours to discuss , it became mundi bazar. We discuss tomatos of patamada , mashrooms, 1 rs- 20 paisa , partnership, hopeless goverment and all except poverty.
I understood the importance of faciliator and clearance of idea. NGO's are loosing there integrities seriously. Only one good point generated was that poverty related with social structure. And living with people more effective than doing only project.
Prof. Srinivasan's lecture are superb..I am feeling realy happy that i am OB fellow. Todays good thought was rather than changing reality, change the way you look at the reality.(Cognitive restructuring). Shubharatri !! (Yesterday we have completed one assignment from 9 pm to 9 am continuous with one maggi break) I cant type more now !

competance or committment ? relationships or task ?

Today i learnt that OB is all about finding whether chicken first or egg...it was very interesting lecture by srinivasan sir with full of fun. He gave us example of child eager to do all the work.For them work is play and thus joy. And this is because work is there choice. Its really very simple and effective theory for life. Always choose your work !! What i feel is dilemma is always at managerial level. We are learning managerial OB so this is what useful to learn dilemma. But when i will go for research or will apply OB for life, it should be above dilemma - unique truth of life.
I am going through very different phase of life with lot of eagerness to learn.I hope I can maintain this state. It should become part and parcel of my life.
I learnt one new concept that '' mind has one central idea and all other thinking processes flourishes on it " . If you don't have that idea, you are bound to face chaos. But what if your mind contains more than one central idea ? your brain and mind should have then partition
technique. ok going anywhere.
Another thought is that, me and my roomie are very good friends. We dont have any issues. But when we are inside room, we are both in our own worlds. What type of relations will be there in between us after one year. ?
Sreenath is watching movie in which one guy solds everything and donate everything and starts new trip. He is very excited abt that idea(control sree !).. Sugat is thinking abt why he left research at Tata and join MBA (man but animal), Hari is filling that he would join FPM course sometime in future.(I hope it should be immediate), my roomie is now frightened with any placecom mails (:)), Today everybody was happy with pepsi PPT as they gave free gifts.
Reju feels OB is BAKAWAS... But see what huge OB stuff i have now with me.. Thats enough otherwise i will stop writing blog in one or two week.(HAARI UVAACH).

Sharing dreams !!

Today morning i was going through C. K. Pralhad's article about India@75. There was one good point made by him that India has no share dream or aspiration after 1920-30's independance dream. I think i should work on this aspect. Can it be possible to have my research topic as creating common dream to whole country.? What level of knowledge i will require for this. But one or other day i will surely make it.
Todays Prof. Gurunathan's lecture was again interesting one. It was about choosing relational benefits rather than transactional benefits. He made interesting point that whenever he ask for examples nobody gives their own examples (Proof that rather than following "SWADHARMA" people goes for loosely said "ARTHA".) Also he mentioned that this type of people are generally reseacher, teacher or NGO's people. I am happy that I am all of three. But thing is that these questions are interesting to have class discussions. But what i feel is that answers for them can be obtained only by self experiment, self analysis. You have to find your own answers !!
Everybody else on campus is deeply engaged in their SIPs, while i am writing blogs, reading books and all. I really should not care abt these things rather than hating them. People will do these things as it is their choice. I should more concentrate on my choice. And i thing i am achiving this level.
Yesterday we visited "Chandil Dam". We had speed boat ride. I want to take experience of "Upasana" in deep ocean, high mountains, speedy wind, and dense forests. Sahich !!
I want to buy following things after my savings.
1] Jipsy
2] Tent
3] lot of books
4] Now, one boat :)
5] One bunglow and my own farm in village(few Bhaise !!).. I dont bother to stay in one room in town.
Can teaching profession and organization work will satisfy my these basic needs. Actually i dont bother abt it. I knows my capacities. I will follow my passion...

Joke VS Concept

Today i had one interesting lecture by Prof. Jomon in HRP. We were learning concepts of different HRP model. As usual Ramaswami, Hrishi and many more guys were sleeping. So sir changed teaching to discussion abt differences between concept and joke? joke makes you laugh while concept leads to yawn ! Why ? actually concept is explaination with all logical steps without missing single link. While joke is all logical steps with one assume link which is not there and which at last create humour. I had never think of fact that joke and concept are two ends of single rope. Actually when I will become teacher, I will use joke to explain concept.
While I was teasing Hari, for lot of PPTs and Gyaan sessions , he was completely assertive with the process. He pointed out that every thing is learning and enjoying for him. Even PPTs , summer gyans and making resume ..this was new learning for me. I always enjoy doing my things. But now onwards i will not condemn any body other doing any other thing. Then only I can be more develop. Actually This is new dimention of Independancy I got from Hari. Lot of work still needed to become Independant.
(Today is Dandia night...I need to take experiece of XL culture.Another fact is that what i wrote yesterday abt Robin is now null and void. As sugat jumped on me to prove that robin never had brown spot but it is some other bird (some X or Y).. I hate you dost ..(Someday i will tell you the name of bird) )..

My first bird watching..

Today morning Sugat wake up me at 8 a.m. and we went for bird watching.(According to him there is no fun in watching but actually it is in identifying ) For me Even watching was difficult. First we waited on teres. I heard lot of sounds but watch none. Then suddenly I was happy to see one bird.. But Sugat identified it as "Crow".But still my first catch gave me lot of pleasure.
Then we went through MDP and then through small Jungle near XL..I was trying hard. All birds were calling me "Common Gaurav, look at us" !! and I was watching with blanck sight all the trees.. It surely created interest in tree watching. Many times I watch out the birds and Sugat identified them as Maina, Dow, Pigeon, Parrot...(I doubt him). Otherwise Kaushal and sugat had some golden birds as (I dont remember their names :)) Any how i managed to survive with these bird watchers for 2 hrs. A new fun for me. But I loved watching Robin very closely with brown spots on his front side.
Anyway i have now some photos with branches and bird flied away.I still feel no use of identifying birds..Real pleasure is in watching them. May it be crow or parrot (Till the time ,I cant find any other..)

2 A.M.

Its 2 a.m. in XL now...I cant sleep yet. As you know every B- school generally work in nights. They watch the sunrise and then only go for the bed. But today its different thing. We have "WET NIGHT", Good concept by few scholars. If we ban drinking inside campus, student can make problems outside campus (bound to happen), therefore why not to allow student to do all non sense and FUN(:)) inside campus ? So there is official wet night in the common room (Room where student should interact and share there dream) for every 2 weeks. This can be awarded as the most innovative idea of the decade (may be century, i dont know the history.) It is the oldest comittee on campus (OMAXI : DRUNKERS).
Ok leave it apart !
Today I learnt the IPN need theory in OB. Can I define some ideal man concept ?
Can we define some benchmark in all these tests which is must for the man to be the harmonious part of society..?
I think these tests as part of a self development. But then what can be my benchmark ?
Can there be substitute for dance ? Are these parties(stuff like that) are compulsary part of society ? How can we define fun ? All boring part na ?
leave it !!
People are asking me to come for party ! So better I switch off lights and think some innotive ideas .
Shubharatri !! (Last one, French- German are here in our campus as part of exchange program. We have shown them senior night, wet night , sunday parties..They are happy. Feeling as if they are in there native place. But what can I do ? Most of people in campus know only this as India.
One more, We have Start up and social sector included in summer . !! XL is full of Contrasts. It is difficult to find matching color.....:))

SREE GANESHAY NAMAHA

Namaskaram ,
My first writing..Entering the new world (for me) of bloggging.
I have following reasons to start this.
1] No need of diary.
2] No need of Laptop memory.
3] May in future , I can share my experiences with somebody.
4] General feeling (I read just now , one of my friend's blog)
(Tips: Please ignore my grammer and spelling mistakes)

Today i had good OB lecture by Prof. Sreenivasan,
I want to learn as much OB as I can. I am feeling OSSOM interest in it ..
Ok thats it. One of my hungry friend (Sugat ) has called me for dinner in our great mess. Need to go !!
this begins my new experiment !! Bye.