Latur - Summers

I am getting one very important break in life. Going to Latur for summers ! Life is going to be complete different out there ! How i will face it ? It is very interesting. What is so big changes are going to happen ?

1] XL hostel - full time with friends around to alone in latur

2] unlimited hot water, beautiful scenary around, nice mess food four times, AC classrooms and library to rain drained area where nothing is fixed abt accomodation, food and all such things

3] 24-hr wifi network to no network

4] 24 hrs electricity, separate rooms to stay --> 12 hrs load shading, water problem and hot summers

5] English, hindi ---> Latur special Marathi :)

6]profit oriented business world ---> BPL farmers and their aspirations

7] dont know what else !!

Fun !!

Can i do few things ?

1] Let have no connection with XL for two months

2] Full time focus on work

3] Travelling in marathavada

4] meeting new people

5] Completely different things than normal schedule

Let us see how it happens - new change !!

Nothing

Going under one of the most bad mental state of life !!

Be rebellious!

External environment, long term blindness is killing me. I don’t know what is happening to me. Today I have feeling that I should be rebellious. Just break the rules. Just throw off the system. Just do something not done before. Break your own limitations. Kill the fear, burn the insecurities and do nothing.

                Give presentations without PPTs, give presentations without using word strategy, go in shorts to class, don’t shave for months, wear hair band, and ask some basic doubt to professor. And don’t stop till he gives answer. Submit report in the simplest format. Watch movie before each quiz. Abuse front benchers as well as back benchers. Just explode the mind..

                We are living in environment where we don’t have any control! Elections are at neck. Leaders are giving some random speeches, Taliban is doing something in Afghanistan, USA in great depression, naxalites killing somebody every day, meaningless bolly wood movies coming out, my classmates are under pressure for their jobs after 1 year, professors are showing egos, daily I am doing something which everybody is doing without knowing why?, Zarakhand villagers don’t have foods for 2-3 days, having love for some girl, looking some very happy families, watching school children playing football, beautiful sunset and birds flying everyday back to their nest..Friends, where we stand in all this ? No control, or so limited control or complete unconsciousness!!

                One day I will feel that I should be pure, one day I will find life beautiful, one day I will be emotional dependant, One day I will find it boring, one day I will be like rock star- complete energetic. And another day I will be no where!!

                Be rebellious! That’s it…… I want to read some novel like this. I should see motorcycle diaries! Today I have effect of song Gulaal- Aarambh he prachand !!

new learnings last two months

Learning 1.

• We are always driven by imagination that our dream will come true. This is sometime possible sometime not.
• Interesting fact is that we are many times more happy by imagination that certain dream will come true than actual happiness we get when dream get realised.
• Now, most dreams come to end on negative ends. then we are unhappy.
• When we are unhappy , we find some external locus of control. We find some logic saying that current state is more favourable than what we wanted to. But this is not good. Accept the truth as it is. Feel the sadness for some time. And then... How to come out ? ..That is great question. Answer is that visualise new dream and follow it.
• Now how happiness can be permanant ? See some big dream which will be unlimited, which will be for others (not self). Then you will be happy for whole life by imagination that dream will come true.

Learning 2

• Be pure ! Loosing something by being pure is better than getting something through cheating.
• Be what you are ! Dont change yourself for somebody else.
• Face the reality.

Learning 3

• Happiness is in sharing.
• Share with everybody. Dont create dependancy. If people start ignoring you because of your high sharing. Find few more. World population is growing as anything. :)

Learning 4

• Nothing is constant. Everything changes. You should be in synchronization with natural cycle.

Learning 5 (combo)

• Key to happiness is creating good humor. Laughter. Happiness is not something you achieve. It is what you think !! 
• Busy schedule is remedy for all problems. Empty mind creates distration

Few practicals

• Avoid excessive use of Gtalk ! :) :)
• don't analyse so much.. live the movement.. Hihihihihi..
• I feel really sorry for emotional dependant people. I am happy to be independant. :)

breaking circles

"All good things always have end". Santosh told me when i was on mumbai platform to catch train to Jamashedpur with leaving back memorable 6 years with JP youth wing work and looking at new XL life for 4 years. I was literally crying with close 7- 8 friends around me and everybody knowing that this was end. Those days would not come  back. Now, after 1 year i still remembers those moments.

Now seniors are leaving campus. I dont have close bonding with all seniors. But yes, footaball team i am surely missing. Same with my volleyball team and few individual members. Fact is that everybody here leaving campus is knowing those days are gone. New life has started. Time cant come back. Today we had last football match and JLT chat. I am feeling too much emotional. 

I know, everything will get settled again in few days. That is life !! yes .. i should enjoy it.

one should be like hero of "into the wild". Accept the fact that past will not come again. Take memories with you and enjoy the present !!

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There is always one thing which creates problem in all other things. Our life according to me is like some vehicle, where problem in one part can create problems in all other part. Consider example, when we see somebody not doing work well, we start blaming him or consider him as someone with less quality. But this happens because we see only that part. Many a times that person may have some other problem going on in his life which results in particular behaviour in other parts. Due to my current phase i am learning few things.

1]Never judge anybody based on particular behavior. any human being is always good. 

2]Whatever plan you may have, always expect something uncertain.

3] Real happiness is in creating joy at wherever u will go and whatever u will do.

4]tight schedulel is very much important. Try to break all the bonds otherwise u cant give your 100 %.

** today again writiing blog desparately...wanted to write something and i thing, i have written something..Anyway, it will reflect my some learning.

Tablet of happiness

Last week was very rigorous !! we were flowing together between different submissions and mid terms..Then surprisingly i got today's evening and night free !! I was so happy. I wanted to lot of things to do.. So i prepared one tablet of happiness and i took it with liquid of songs..Here is my report.. As I am under going managerial training, will write it in points.

1] i went to gym. Enjoyed cycling and weights and ultimately SHAVASAN !! (background was english rhythmic music)

2]Then i took my bicycle and went for cycling(1 hr). I went on one road going high up. I drive my cycle in 5 th gear !! enjoyed the pain. And then enjoyed flow while coming back on slope. (background was peaceful tunes !!)

3] I met some unknown person. I asked him some random things. He enjoyed chatting.

4] I saw one tree. I felt as if it is hanging in the sky !! (hihihi). I watched that one for 10 min.

5] then i came back. I called one of my friend, and went to Cafe coffee day !! (background loud music in cafeteria)

6] Then i wanted to go to temple. In between i helped one very old woman by giving money. Then i saw one cow very ill. I bought some banana's and tried to feed cow !!!

7] I came back and made one (bad ) painting in word paint !!

8] I heard summer of 69 and we will rock you in loud volume !!

9]I took bath for half an hr in hot water. Before than shaving and then that smell of after shave !!

10] I had full bottle of water after heavy exercise.

11] Then i did prayer on  "Sarve Bhavantu Sukhinaha"

12] I interpreted one of the good poem by Ravindranath Tagore.

13] Then i had pastries from cafe coffee days. Shared them with friends and had chat abt "Pune"

14] I came back and called one of my very old friend with whom i had no communication for long time.

15] I Dreamed abt one movie , in which father would take his son on world trip, and would teach real meaning of life through actual experiences !!!

15]Now writing this blog.

16 ] Going to watch Liverpool Vs Real madrid football match at 1.30

I wanted to share this with somebody. lot of people are around me. I can call any of my friends in pune. But still nobody is there. (background song is my fav lonely song so gaya..)

What is happiness ? I say all above as tablet because i did all that but on back of mind i was enjoying a dream of sharing all this experiences with friends. Real joy was of feeling of sharing. So it is tablet and not state of happiness !!

Ya , I will accept that now my battery is 100 percentage charged but then,

May god help me in achieving real state of happiness in future !!