Pro Anna or Anti Anna - par sab Bhrashtachar ko to hai mitana

Dear Friends,

When we are going under this intellectual turmoil, and one group supporting Anna for systematic level changes through some bill and other group opposing the fight having problem with means and leadership or democracy, what COMMON across all of us is that we are more AWARE and we want CHANGE..

If this intellectual turbulence is not converted into some action then everything is waste.. Those who support, they think one way as right way to have corruption free India, while other think we need some other better way.. But what all want is CORRUPTION FREE INDIA.

All of us know whether we participate in rallies, whether we discuss and oppose Anna by writing blogs, we are contributing very little to actual system level changes.. When we will be in place with that power to make decisions, we will do it according to our own perspectives..

But right now , all of us are surely out of the inertia that we used to be in case of corruption. Many of us may not have done any corruption before... but i have.. I have given bribe to TC to have seat preference, I have not taken bill to save tax, I have paid lumsum money to traffic police... I was not mindful that i am contributing to corruption.. but with this churning, now i am more aware...

whether you are Pro- or Anti Anna, you can surely contribute to this positive energy in our country by deciding some personal level SANKALPA's.

I have decided 5 corruption free sankalpa's at personal level,

a] I am not going to bribe TC..

b] I will always take Bill wherever possible and will not avoid WAT.

c] I will not pay bribe to police.

d] I will not allow my friends to pay bribe whenever i am with them.

e] Iwill not speak lie to anyone to create wrong self image.

Now whether it is lokpal bill or janlokpal bill (you can have your own views), Whether democratic way or autocratic way (you can have your own views), systematic level changes will evolve through policy makers.. we have created enough movementum that they need to think.

But all of us together say (10 lakhs) people who are active on facebook and really love their country, with their differences if decide any such five personal Sankalpa's/Oath, we can contribute to our country on this occasion.. Who knows these personal change might lead to systematic level changes and really our India can really become corruption free country at even system level..

I request all of you, whether you are Pro or Anti Anna group, if you believe you are taking any of this stance with good intentions, then please come up with such personal level sankalpa's which will change your personal life as token of this pro or anti fight...System badale na badale - khudako to badal hi sakate hai... chahe aap ho pro anna ya anti anna , Bhrashtachar mita hi sakate hai...!!!!

(Share your such Sankalpa's with your friends on facebook.. and become more constructive.)

TIMEPASS

1. The person who is coming to this world has to leave this world…….Is there anyone who is immortal?
2. Desires help you to pass your time. But there is never complete satisfaction. One desire creates other desire.. It just goes on.
3. When you have certain interpretation of life, you feel engaged and completely engrossed and you forget about past and future and that moment you are able to pass your time well.
4. So everything comes down to the central question about how well you are able to pass the given time?
5. You are passing your time happily, suddenly something new information is added in your complexity. Now same interpretation is unable to answer the new complexity. So higher level interpretation comes to understand the new complexity and you are able to pass your time well again.
6. Some people get interpretation from such higher level of complexity that they are able to pass their time well without changing it.. Some people are lucky/unlucky to never increase their complexity and lower level interpretation able to drive their whole life.
7. So to pass the time, many interpretations have evolved. From food, sleep, sports, hobbies, sex, work & relationships to identity, meaning, religion & culture.. All of them are nothing but drivers for life-time pass.
8. Thus there is search for two issues, anchor to pass your time well.. You will like to have anchor which will be stable even with higher level of complexity and secondly how to pass this time happily… so how to get that happiness?
9. Now I will just take two cases and will compare them. One is based on anchor that man is selfish animal. It is all about getting more and more and fulfilling the desires. That is purpose of life. Second is based on anchor that man is nothing but manifestation of divinity and it is all about expanding you and working towards realization?
10. With First case, you need to work on improving your anchor for each phase of life. Also happiness from materialistic world is marginal utility function. The more and more you get; the each new consumption gives to you less than previous. So happiness decreases, there is need of new anchors and time-pass becomes extremely difficult at certain phase of life.
11. With second case, anchor is something non-refutable.. It can sustain with the highest level of complexity. Also happiness is exponential function. Spiritual journey – each new destination gives you infinite more happiness than previous. So happiness increases, anchor becomes more and more stable and time-pass becomes extremely easy. With such a ease you just come out of the cycle of birth – death…
12. With this I complete my time-pass for last two-three hrs on given sunday morning..

Disorder

When reality forces me to see down, dreams even become stronger and stronger and i get more and more energy.. you may call this as "day dreaming disorder (DDD)"

consider situation, where i have rs 10...there is one shop selling some stuff for rs 20.. Without thinking twice, i go there and tell him give me that thing - I have just rs 10.. i will give you remaining rs 10 afterwards..And he happily gives that thing to me.. :)

And slowly slowly this world changes... through self purification, transactions are replaced by transformation..there is no currency...when there is no insecurity where comes the concept of security ?

no body need to trust each other.. It is given.. there is no risk aversion, there is no doubt.. everything is just pure and simple..

capitalism...market.... ya.. This existence of earth itself become market for purification of mankind..Value creation gets the new meaning..

I think - I am also getting under Ideal World Disorder !! :)

advanced..50%

I am thinking about one thing from yesterday.

We went into market to take our photographs.. bill was 100.. and he called us to collect photographs after two hrs.. and then we paid him 50 rs in advance and decided to pay 50 afterwards..And then we felt afterwards that why don't we just trust others... Is he going to give us different photo than what we are ? Then why only 50% advanced ? And now he is going to do same thing with some other person... He will not give anything without advance.. and we are corrupting the world..

What are our assumptions on which we are working in this world ? If i start giving advance 100% with full trust, will that lead to exponential change of trust in this world..Someone need to start changing these assumptions of self-interest, rational, greedy human beings..Otherwise all our strategies will remain just surface level interventions.. We can just postponed the bad end of this world and without really making any big difference...

Can we just pay what Autowala wants without arguing.. Can we just not bargain in market... Can we just stop this system of security deposit for our own rental house.. Can we ?

atleast at some places, atleast at some locations, can we start increasing our faith and our trust in other human beings..?

One need to change his assumptions about this world and world will change.. We need to have correct design principles at place to evolve this cosmos in better world..

FAST

Experiencing my fast

I decided to keep one day fast to support the anti corruption bill. I am not aware of what this fight exactly is. But I really felt from my heart that this is some good cause – I should support. My consciousness said to me to follow it. As a student of leadership and OB, I am really doubtful whether Anna hazare has enough leadership qualities to read the situation and lead this movement..But at personal level I strongly felt that “goodness” within me should go on fast for one day to support this positive energy. And I did that …

When I was on fast – I learned so many things – I am classifying it at three level.

A] I had constant feeling that I am supporting some real good thing and some kind of positive wave is getting build up throughout the country. I can feel that I am part of this big system and some or other day I will contribute something to it. Although I was alone fasting at my place.. I was never alone !!

B] Then my consciousness told me that there is time yet to come when you can lead anything.. you are still small one learning on your own weakness..It reminded me of all the corruptions as an individual I carried out for this system. I decided never to bribe TC for ticket (which I had sometime), never to buy black ticket and never to save WAT by not having bill.. I decided to improve on these three things as my personal sankalpa’s to improve this system by individual efforts...

C] Then my consciousness told me to go further down. Who I am to think about system when – this “I” itself is corrupt.. It told me that systems will come and go.. what about you..? And I recalled all lies I had told to so many people so many times.. the burning hunger decided to burn my “corrupt I”.. I remembered – how much impure am i.. I decided not to lie those things which I am doing for so many days.. I can’t go back to each one and remove that.. but I can do to my close friends.. I never cleared NDA mains.. I never cleared IIT screening.. these were two most common lies - I was sharing in some different groups.

The hunger fire of one day fast connected me to system level, individual level and also something inside me..The human life is about making yourself pure.. it is about building ego and then dissolving it.. It is really beautiful journey..

By experiencing these Gandhi (More about Indian)way, My faith is surely increased now than the way I used to do only by reading or criticizing…

Either we get excited or we give it.. there can be always some path in between of "learning"..

Life is all about constant learning..

Locus

What a great day... India winning world cup...

I was watching it @ sports Dhaba in XLRI.. I was able to make some interesting observations and thus some food for thinking..

When Sachin was batting, one person was standing with his one leg on chair.. other person was constantly smoking and not giving even little space between two smokes..and there were so many other people who were thinking - it is because of them (by wearing same t-shirt, by sitting at particular location, by not watching, by doing some or other thing ) that Sachin was playing safely because of their action..:):).. And when Sachin got out, most of them really thought that it happened because of them...

I don't know how this thing will work out - if 1 billion people are responsible for Sachin's outcome :).. most difficult calculations for god..

But my point is something different..

In one direction,

Interesting most of these people - when it comes to their personal life - think that they can't do anything.. they don't have control over their own life..For Sachin to play, they will stand whole day on one leg without eating anything. but for their personal life, they are completely losers...

In other direction,

some of these people will consider their neighbors, friends, umpire, prime minister, calender date responsible for getting Sachin out.. .but in their personal life they will think everything happens because of them.. No external situation, force is responsible in their own case.. as if they have complete control over their life..

Point is either we think we have complete control over our life or we think we absolutely don't have...We never make perfect balance.. Happiness lies in pragmatic shifting of locus either to external or internal event..:)

When Sachin is playing, we do all the things to be happy, if he gets out we mostly forget our contribution and give credit to other person for changing his position.. When he is playing we think - it is because of t-shirt i am wearing.. :) Actually it is all about our perception to make ourselves happy.. Why not shift our locus pragmatically in our own life ? Live life happily.. Anyway - it is so complex, we are never going to understand it.. so use shifting of locus to live it peacefully..

LOVE

Mother has written about 4 kinds of love – a] you love some material for pleasure, b] you love someone in expectation of return love, c] you love someone till you are getting space to express it. There are no return expectations but you need some token, d] Divine love – where you just love…

Divine love is very easy to understand but difficult to apply & human love happens without any forced awareness but very difficult to understand… Why it is like this?

Initially I used to think possessiveness, security, desires, expectations, attachment and all such characteristics are associated with human love. These things create trouble and are absent in divine love. In divine love – it is just love. So instead of focusing on different object of love that is human and divine – I was thinking that process of love is different

I think love either emerges or creates feeling of security, possessiveness, expectations, companionship. These are part and parcel of the process which we called as love. Now problem is that actually human love can’t give you constant security, possessiveness, fulfillment of expectations…It is really very finite. Either time will get over, people will change, over the time intensity will decrease.. some or other thing will happen. So we are always in constant fear of losing these things that are acting as love. So either one of these things get over – that is security gets converted into insecurity, we lose possession, we lose our companion, we are not able to fulfill expectations and love creates trouble. Even if these things are there – fear creates trouble. Now in case of divine love – security, possessiveness, expectations, companionship everything is there. But you know now object is divine – infinite, permanent… there is permanent security, companionship and possessiveness. There are no chances of these things getting converted into opposite. There is no fear so divine love always gives you constant happiness and bliss.

Now I think divine love is not difficult to apply. It is same human love only object we have changed. Now there is no need to fear, it is going to give you joy full time. This realization also helps you to overcome fear in human love. It is finite one. So you start enjoying present moments and don’t get upset when it changes its form. We need to start loving and enjoying our company. We need to start loving divinity in nature and in other people. Once we have divine love, human love becomes very easy to understand. There is kind of peace and permanent happiness

Memories

Should one preserve past memories. ?

Are they functional or dysfunctional ?

Are they necessary ?

are they stepping stone or stumbling block..

Do they act as benchmark ?

or each memory is unique and is not connected ?

Do they put one away from living in present moment ?

Solitude

Today it was very hot whole day.. after evening - it was time for some speedy wind and some awesome climate..I took XL campus walk alone with some silent music...

What experience it was... now a days when i always feel in-secured about 'permanent alone state' that each human being is in...this time it was moment to get connected with nature.. there is some energy in blowing winds, flowing water, rising sun and full moon...something is there.. Although it is difficult to be connected for long time as something inside rushes outside to share all that.. and that moment just breaks..but today it was real contentment...

i am going to miss this xLrI campus after 2 years :(...

Falling leaves

Season of falling leaves...Time to change :(

Beautiful campus with heavy emotions....................

time to detach from past memories and at the same time excitement for starting new life cycle..

For any one who is in education profession - month of March and April are for saying bye bye...And waiting for June to say welcome again...

Everybody want to be DJ of rang de basanti...

Is there any tree which has no falling leaves ?

Is life of that tree more happier ?

does present exist ? what is ultimate reality..

There are three types of pain..

a] for something which is happened in past

b] Something you are facing in present

c] Something you dreamed and realized that it will not happen.. broken dream..

I think a] happens when you can't dream well.. if you can dream well, then you will come out of past pains.. but then that may lead to c.. and thus vicious cycle...

I think c] happens when you are really really dreamy and then you enjoy all the dream.. But then you feel pain when you realize that dream is not going to be true.. but then if you have high re-constructive power, you will see new dream... quite difficult, but you can.. or you need to live in present then nothing will affect you related to future in present..but then it can lead to b.. and then vicious cycle... So reconstruction can be ultimate solution..

And for b] , you need to depend upon past good things or future hope.. again both of the things lead to either a or c and hence vicious cycle..or you can face the pain in present...

So ultimately two solutions..

a] Reconstruct... accept no reality exist.. or better to say whatever you construct is reality.. so you construct your happy world.. and this construction need to be highly flexible and adaptive..

b] or Live in present and accept the pains which are in present.. and face then.. but then how to face them.. that i don't know.. i always go for reconstruction..

I think there is nothing like present.. it is just awareness of past or future... so b does not exist,, ans thus reconstruction can be the ultimate solution..

I am !!

Idiot by choice....

I prefer to be vulnerable..

I know trusting everyone blindly might lead that one day you will be mistrust and cheated..

But then i am at advantage...

I realized that cost for mistrust or cheating from others that you would pay in some cases is always less than cost that you pay for all cases on day to day basis to lie, to not to believe, to monitor all transaction, to evaluate, to doubt, to reject, to avoid, to remain conscious,

My friends, i know i am fool..

But i am calculatively so....i think in wholesome and not transaction-wise..

Become vulnerable - Mission Innocence...Join it !!

The world will be the happiest when everyone is innocent.

explaining it in metaphor

Life is uncertain.. Life is complex....

Mind is even more complex..

Our mind is originally free.. but we create the habit of putting something inside it from childhood.. then in some years, mind can't remain free. it always requires something inside it. dreamers see some dream which is unachievable and their mind remain permanently busy in it. Some people think of helping others or changing the society and their mind always remain busy in it. Some people get passionated by some goal and by motivation to prove themselves and their mind remain busy.. Some just get dissolve in love and become permanently engaged.

But process is not that simple. With each engagement activity of mind, their come the byproducts. With dream comes the hope for reality, with goal comes the greediness, with service comes the ego and with love comes the expectations. And as we don't fulfill these byproducts we start feeling sad about it. It creates the pain in our life.

Thus it is important to understand that it is mind who wanted entertainment , that is why it got engaged. But now byproducts of these engagements are creating trouble which were never intentional. Thus we should actually enjoy the movie that mind is screening rather than getting into the pain for not fulfilling these byproducts . Secondly these engagements are always substitutable .. Goal can be replace by other goal , dream by other dream and love by some other love.. It is like changing the movie in cinema hall..

Free mind is ideal state. Busy mind is natural state. Pain from not fulfilling the expectations created from byproducts is artificial state. Each human being should destroy the artificial state, and should start the journey towards ideal state from natural state.

Somebody

Somebody's alarm is ringing continuously for last 10 min. (nice background for current thought process), XL is full live... on first floor some teams are working for MAXI fAIR..(XLRI's one of the oldest event)..Very creative work is going on.. On third floor- drinking party is @ peak... smoking.. drinking.. loud music..dance and completely loosing oneself !! they may have taken drugs..enjoying themselves completely... Ground floor people are celebrating birthday with putting maggy, eggs and bear on birthday boy !!......Bishu da is making parathas continuously and feeding the XLrer gangs hanging out there for their breaks.. Some couple is taking slow walk in chill cold but beautiful xlri campus... Some Ghissus are behind Kakani's assignment- thinking of how will they make it this time.. Some are on phone with their GF/BF and are explaining what was there in dinner tonight...Some are playing badminton and some football in lights....some are already in their bed under deep sleep...some are watching movie in LH...Placecom is busy behind contacting companies and negotiating packages..Committees are coming back after having expensive dinner.....Bahadur is unhappy as he has not got the MAXI fair pass.....I am observing and thinking......

See different things people are doing in one of the busiest place in India. Imagine what our ancient would be doing - when there was so much free time......This was the evolution of concept "Culture".......

Actually this leads to question what it mean by LIFE ?

India poised.......

After long days,

As i am learning management will start writing today's blog with some figures/data

1] My MBA friends will get salaries around RS. 16-22 lakhs per annum from their first jobs

2] I am getting 25,000 stipend for doing my research and taking the education

3] My Photographer friend is struggling to earn steady 25,000 per month (at this stage, in future he may earn in crores...)

4] My engineer friend (Mtech- non renewable energy resources) is getting salary of Rs 6 lakhs per annum

5] My friend working in IT is getting 5.5 lakhs salary per annum after working for 4 and half years

6] My mom is getting salary of 2 lakh per ammum after working for 20 years in Bank..

7] One of my best friend who can be the best event manager and better manager than most of my friends is struggling to get the job.

8] Mess boy is getting 3000 for cleaning the food wasted by all MBA studs in my mess.

9] Gardners are getting less than Rs 100 for maintaining the lawn where future managers throw their bear bottles,

10] Farmer , 40 km from my college don't get any assured income and sometime Rs 80 per day.

11] India'sPrime minister's salary is..........

and so on... Why is it like that......Except prime minister, i have seen everybody.. so i don't believe that differences in their salaries are any way are related to their skill level or intellectual level. Are these MNC's are bringing new capitalist structure in society ? is it right distribution of wealth ? Where this will lead the society ? What is attitude that will develop in these managers ? what will be the attitude that will develop in the people who are earning less without there fault ? will anybody go for engg in non renewable resources rejecting the HR job? will anybody choose their passion such as musics, photography, arts as their careers? Do we need some reforms in the systems ? Do we need CHE in India ? Alla kasam :), mere dost MBA pura karake job suru karenge tabhi muze es cheej ka answer milega !!!

4TH term "learnings-unlearnings"

I should have one line common for all the posts on my blogs..

"I am writing after so many days....:)"

Anyway, here are few things i did in last term in XLRI.

1] We had great fun in our sportscom comittee. We started one super league consist of all games. We had a bidding process to form the 4 clubs..and then we started the tournament with 2 events this term. Good innitiative in XL.

2] In SIGMA, we started project school on new mode. We are conducting workshop for students on each saturday-sunday. We have completed 6 workshops this term and we are targetting overall 42 in whole year. We got 100 volunteers. We had clothes distibution under GOONJ. We also started campaign against food wastage in mess.

3] We had a bike trip to some fall about 50 km from JamashedPur. And near about 10 trips to Dimna..And now we are going to bhuvaneshwar (400 km) on bike in next two days...

4] I listened to many good speeches on TED. I had a good collection of poems in last three months. I collected few good presentations...

5] I attended all social entrepreneurship, indian Philosophy, MCCD and counselling lecture without missing single one. I learned a lot...it was fun. 3 of them were without notebook and pen.

6] I made one really self satisfying presentation on self actuallization. It was fun.. I had a few more creative presentations in IPLE and social entrepreneurship lectures.

7] I made one good documetry with srinath on platform beggers.

8] It was fun reading Yayati, Geeta, Developmental Economics, Freud and many more..

9] I had one beautiful morning with hari, near dimna lake reading Geeta..

10] first time many full night outs..no exercises whole term....lot of tea......and variety of friends

11] LONG HAIRS>>>>>>>> i am loosing many for that... but its ok...any how i will loose them

12] More thinking on "Kama Purusha, Swadharma and purpose of life"

13] more empty and loneliness feeling by thinking of future and thinking the world as constantly changing..

XL 2nd year begins !!

Back to XL !! With great experience of summer project with Basix, again eager to get some more knowledge. This term looking forward at two subjects

1] Indian philosophy and leadership

2] Social entrepreneurship

Summer has created lot of interest in reaserch. Now i need to think about finalising my subject.

Thats it !!

just trying to come back on blog.

Kakani special !!

God ! we finished our end term for financial management today. I started studying yesterday with Laxmi stotra (as paper was finance :)). then night out and today whole day- study..it was surprise as expected when we faced the end term. This term we only had KAKANI in our life. Whole PMIR batch was kakanized..(new word added to dictionary :)). Here are few reasons for process of kakanization.

1] He creates his own rule and follows them by heart.. as hard as RAJA Harishchandra.

2] Now , term began with kakani explaining class that it is a game we are going to play for next 20 lectures..(Rules defined by him)

3] All lectures at 8.30 morning (it is midnight timming for XL :)). If you r 1 second late , you are out.

4] First lecture 15 marks are deposited to your account. Now game will be played base on reduction and addition to this 15 marks.

5] Random presenty.. Day he feel that there are more than 2 people absent, he will take attendance. And -2 for absent people.. So (you have to present all lecture on time, also he dont have to take attendance everyday)

6] If mobile is on, and somebody calls you... uffff !!  -7 marks for you and entire row gets -2 each.

7] Before each lecture - one group assignment based on chapter that will be there on that lecture. Result- you should read chapter , discuss it in group and then only come to class. U will need to spend 3 hrs before each lecture.

8] He assigned one company to each . And we had individual assignment after each lecture based on that company. (Great idea so people cant copy each others assignment) . Result- You read that chapter again after lecture and spends 3 hrs for doing assignment.

9]Now for checking each assignment he will generate no. by random no generator. Say for assgnmt 1, no generated is 1, then that assgnmt will be checked for roll no 1,11,21,31.... REsult- In given 18 assnmt your no. can come any time so that you have to do all assgnmt properly. you cant do trade off. Again good assignment will add 2-3 mark to your deposit of 15 mark and bad assignment can subtract upto 7 marks.. BAAP-RE !!

10] First quiz, - all numericals, options were given very close. Say answer is 16.75. He will give option as  a] 16.2 to 16.4 b] 16.2 to 16.6 c] <=16.2.. and answer will be option (e) for all questions saying as "none of the above". Who will dare to answer"none of this" for all question although you calculate right answers.

11] before end term all people  have spend 3hr * 21 group assgnmt + 3 hrs * 18 individual assignments + 1.5 hrs * 20 lectures + quiz study + 1 hrs * 26 chapters reading = 173 hrs on finance in span of 2 month.

12] Still everybody struggling to pass, So people studied for atleast 24 hrs before end term

13] end term is - he gave one business standard newspaper. Exam time is 150 min. And we have 55 questions on 55 news spread over all the papers even in suppliment. :)

What else you don't want ???? hihihihihihi

One should experience Kakani rather than going for tirthayatra ! What else u want ?

Dear sir, people may say anything about you.. You are great !! 

Latur - Summers

I am getting one very important break in life. Going to Latur for summers ! Life is going to be complete different out there ! How i will face it ? It is very interesting. What is so big changes are going to happen ?

1] XL hostel - full time with friends around to alone in latur

2] unlimited hot water, beautiful scenary around, nice mess food four times, AC classrooms and library to rain drained area where nothing is fixed abt accomodation, food and all such things

3] 24-hr wifi network to no network

4] 24 hrs electricity, separate rooms to stay --> 12 hrs load shading, water problem and hot summers

5] English, hindi ---> Latur special Marathi :)

6]profit oriented business world ---> BPL farmers and their aspirations

7] dont know what else !!

Fun !!

Can i do few things ?

1] Let have no connection with XL for two months

2] Full time focus on work

3] Travelling in marathavada

4] meeting new people

5] Completely different things than normal schedule

Let us see how it happens - new change !!

Nothing

Going under one of the most bad mental state of life !!