My India

I am feeling very low and sad. I am feeling very very angry as all the people of India. I am actually crying....

I know all the reasons , I know the short term reactions, long term reactions, grass root level work and all funda.

I know media is bad, govt is useless, terrorist are bastards. and all !!

I can't see the channel. I can't hear the news. I can't forget the things. I can't control myself.

My dear country,

I want my country to be the best in the world !! We will do all the things required to make our country the best.

Can we make the human chain and go inside the taj in front of terrorist and finish the episode ?

Do we have that passion for our country ?

Will I do that ?

Just now i can't think strategically neither intellactually.

Just now i can only feel the emotions.

And i am felling very bad !! Very very bad !!

Event 3 + 4

Event 3 : Wall climbing

I did 11 m (average performance) while IIM L guy did 13 m. SO i didn't outperformed others as i was planning to. Still we were at second position and IIML holding the top position.

{MyMind :1] Mental preparation is tough one. I was optimistic for 24 hrs and lost my focus for 2 seconds and lost the game.

2] Play for fun is better strategy for me than play for win (at least for me. Then only i can perform)

3] Now i will start working on fitness .(Not going to happen)}

Event 4 : Raft

This was going to be decider event.  Even team standing 6 had chance. We were knowing that who ever would make first raft was going to win. We made it first but then we paid cost for paying less attention to structure and making hurry. As raft got fractures(:)) in between and we lost the opportunity to grab the high point blue balls, Still after initial setback we performed well and we got the overall 3 rd position.

{My mind: 1] Raghav and me had contrast approaches to face rafting. There was not any point in fighting. Should i follow or be leader ? (very big dilemma)

2] Should i be happy for whatever our team achieve or should do analysis  of mistakes.

3] No point in back talks after events.

4] I am finding external locus of control } 

 

Today's writing is desperate writing. Not getting feel to write. So stopping. !

event 2 : MAP reading

Today's second event was somewhat liked treasure hunt added to it map reading and biking ! also trade off between points. We played according to our strength. there was rule that one would crack the puzzles sitting in the room and other two would ride the bike and finding different places using map and clues from one sitting in room. We played on our strength. Saloni was in the room solving puzzles and Raghav joined me on bike. I was riding bike (my strength :) hi hi hi;  ), Raghav asking addresses. We understood today that we don't know Jamashedpur beyond Bistupur . So sad !! But it was advantageous to us. One time i missed the return road and luckily we got one place of 400 points.

Any way now we are at position 2 from earlier 5 th position. We should win tomorrow.

{My mind- 1] Saloni is the best at solving puzzle. So she should be one in the room. It worked :) she solved all 7 clues. Event gave us large push to recover.

2] i am bad at solving puzzle. But actually i was able to contribute lot in solving puzzle. Also i had nice initiative for deciding strategy.

3] Now i am feeling i will do the wall climbing and will  also play major role in driving raft.We should contribute on our strength. }

WE should win tomorrow. 

Event 1 : hurdles

Event 1 is over now.(hurdle race)

We had average performance.

there were hurdles that are used by miltry for its training.

Three of us failed in rope climbing event. Saloni tried hard for Tarzen jump and mine crossing. But no success.

{My mind - 1] I should have done rope. But when i saw first time i felt i would not. That hammered me, I didn't tried hundred percentage. 2] Saloni is tough girl - She tried really hard. 3] Wall climbing is with 300 point. I should do that at any cost. 3] Power is my strength in the team. I should have done rope also should have help team more. It is all mind game. This is learning, Now i will pass through artificial wall climbing at any cost. 4] There were many times in Jnana Prabodhini we had opportunity to do rope climbing. But i never did it. So there will be many skills which can be useful in life for future. Never avoid taking new experiences.}

Second event is treasure hunt. will start at 1 pm. I am expecting my team to perform well.

SAloni and me are thinking that still we will be the winner. While Raghav thinks "Bolane se kya hota hai, Karake dikhana chahiye" :)

Adventure Questa -mind journey diary

I have participated in adventure questa competition in college. Its 2 day competition. I am writing this after our first event of first day has been completed. I got one idea to write journey of thought process i will undergo through whole event.

1] It all started with one day Saloni asking me to participate. I was least interested before. But then we formed the team and participated (Team name AGNI ). {My mind completely dispassionate}

2] There were three member Raghav- Saloni- Gaurav. Round one was online quiz. Raghav was out that day. Probably Saloni was going to be out of town that time. I prepared least dispassionately calling Hari for help. Even Saloni was there at that time of quiz. And they both playing different tricks attempted quiz. {My mind- 1] i don't know anything in nature. I can't contribute. 2] there were 95 teams . Out of which 6 were to be selected. So NO CHANCE !. 3] ok bhai, nahi select hote then three days holiday.What big deal.}. I was able to contribute in 3 Q out of 18.

3]Most surprisingly our team got shortleast. Me and Hari were in dancing state.{My mind- 1] one who expect least can perform better. as he is free of any pressure.}

 

4] Xlenc team try to convince us that you should replace your one member as no other selected team has any girl as member. We decided to go with same team. {My mind-1] its ok to take Bharat or Sreenath. 2] No way, Its Saloni who innitiated the thing. secondly her brain will be our strength. We will have advantage.}

5] One day before I send one mail trying to inspire team. Tried to create common dress code for team, punch line for team. We even searched for some management games. and wall climbing and rafting clips. {My mind -1] We can win. 2] My strength is to inspire team. So i should take initiative.} I thought it worked.

i love this moments !!

I am totally excited for my future 3 hours. It is going to be a lot of fun. generally people says that the B-schools are very busy And people dont find a time. I too tell like this to my parents many time.(Why i don't know). But really speaking i have a lot of time.

I am currently lying on the bed. It is a slight cold outside. I had one nice glass of a horlick milk. Now  i have some packets of "Moong Dal" and "pea nut".Adding to that flavour, some milk chocklates (total spending  rs. 20). I am enjoying a some oldie music on the Dhingana.com. And after this preparation, its time to read the book "Sidhartha". Hey, what else the beauty can be ?

The life  is like one canavas where you paint your colours. You need to choose your own colours.Generally people looks around for a differnt colours and then copy that colours in their canvas. I have decided that i will only not choose my colours but also will  decide my own shades of it.Only a restriction i will have is that my colours will not be costly. Or better say if possible self made.I dont want to waste my joyful time of painting in earning money and buying common colours. !!! For me as above said the colours exist there already. I will just catch them.

I think the  Freedom will be the my most prior value.lastly my strengths are visionary,learner, activer (how ?), related and connected according to one test.(hi hi hi... :))

Acceptance of jealousy

Professor Sreenivasan classes are real learning. Today he asked people that is there any body in class who's never experience jealousy. there were 2-3 people. And then he concluded that accepting and expressing jealousy is the way to overcome the problems that are created by wrong path followed many of the times after feeling of jealous. I think accepting and expressing is the most key step for any mind development( Manasik Vikasana ). That is one of the purpose of this blog.
It is really fun now listening the " dwandwa " between E. M. Rav sir and Sreenivasan sir classes.
It always remind me of one book "Durdamya" where Lokmanya tilak explains this type of friendly fight between professor's in Fergusson college. It is really nice.
I should work on following things now.
1] Understanding the individual differences.
2] Focusing on strengh of any other person and compensating foor weakness.
Both the steps are very important for working as OB researcher or Prof (Fundamental pricniple)
as well as working for non profit organization. In short my FUTURE !!!!