Learning GAURAV

Pro Anna or Anti Anna - par sab Bhrashtachar ko to hai mitana

2011-08-25T05:44:00.001-07:00

Dear Friends,

When we are going under this intellectual turmoil, and one group supporting Anna for systematic level changes through some bill and other group opposing the fight having problem with means and leadership or democracy, what COMMON across all of us is that we are more AWARE and we want CHANGE..

If this intellectual turbulence is not converted into some action then everything is waste.. Those who support, they think one way as right way to have corruption free India, while other think we need some other better way.. But what all want is CORRUPTION FREE INDIA.

All of us know whether we participate in rallies, whether we discuss and oppose Anna by writing blogs, we are contributing very little to actual system level changes.. When we will be in place with that power to make decisions, we will do it according to our own perspectives..

But right now , all of us are surely out of the inertia that we used to be in case of corruption. Many of us may not have done any corruption before... but i have.. I have given bribe to TC to have seat preference, I have not taken bill to save tax, I have paid lumsum money to traffic police... I was not mindful that i am contributing to corruption.. but with this churning, now i am more aware...

whether you are Pro- or Anti Anna, you can surely contribute to this positive energy in our country by deciding some personal level SANKALPA's.

I have decided 5 corruption free sankalpa's at personal level,

a] I am not going to bribe TC..

b] I will always take Bill wherever possible and will not avoid WAT.

c] I will not pay bribe to police.

d] I will not allow my friends to pay bribe whenever i am with them.

e] Iwill not speak lie to anyone to create wrong self image.

Now whether it is lokpal bill or janlokpal bill (you can have your own views), Whether democratic way or autocratic way (you can have your own views), systematic level changes will evolve through policy makers.. we have created enough movementum that they need to think.

But all of us together say (10 lakhs) people who are active on facebook and really love their country, with their differences if decide any such five personal Sankalpa's/Oath, we can contribute to our country on this occasion.. Who knows these personal change might lead to systematic level changes and really our India can really become corruption free country at even system level..

I request all of you, whether you are Pro or Anti Anna group, if you believe you are taking any of this stance with good intentions, then please come up with such personal level sankalpa's which will change your personal life as token of this pro or anti fight...System badale na badale - khudako to badal hi sakate hai... chahe aap ho pro anna ya anti anna , Bhrashtachar mita hi sakate hai...!!!!

(Share your such Sankalpa's with your friends on facebook.. and become more constructive.)

TIMEPASS

2011-05-14T23:03:00.000-07:00

The person who is coming to this world has to leave this world…….Is there anyone who is immortal?
Desires help you to pass your time. But there is never complete satisfaction. One desire creates other desire.. It just goes on.
When you have certain interpretation of life, you feel engaged and completely engrossed and you forget about past and future and that moment you are able to pass your time well.
So everything comes down to the central question about how well you are able to pass the given time?
You are passing your time happily, suddenly something new information is added in your complexity. Now same interpretation is unable to answer the new complexity. So higher level interpretation comes to understand the new complexity and you are able to pass your time well again.
Some people get interpretation from such higher level of complexity that they are able to pass their time well without changing it.. Some people are lucky/unlucky to never increase their complexity and lower level interpretation able to drive their whole life.
So to pass the time, many interpretations have evolved. From food, sleep, sports, hobbies, sex, work & relationships to identity, meaning, religion & culture.. All of them are nothing but drivers for life-time pass.
Thus there is search for two issues, anchor to pass your time well.. You will like to have anchor which will be stable even with higher level of complexity and secondly how to pass this time happily… so how to get that happiness?
Now I will just take two cases and will compare them. One is based on anchor that man is selfish animal. It is all about getting more and more and fulfilling the desires. That is purpose of life. Second is based on anchor that man is nothing but manifestation of divinity and it is all about expanding you and working towards realization?
With First case, you need to work on improving your anchor for each phase of life. Also happiness from materialistic world is marginal utility function. The more and more you get; the each new consumption gives to you less than previous. So happiness decreases, there is need of new anchors and time-pass becomes extremely difficult at certain phase of life.
With second case, anchor is something non-refutable.. It can sustain with the highest level of complexity. Also happiness is exponential function. Spiritual journey – each new destination gives you infinite more happiness than previous. So happiness increases, anchor becomes more and more stable and time-pass becomes extremely easy. With such a ease you just come out of the cycle of birth – death…
With this I complete my time-pass for last two-three hrs on given sunday morning..

Disorder

2011-05-12T10:04:00.000-07:00

When reality forces me to see down, dreams even become stronger and stronger and i get more and more energy.. you may call this as "day dreaming disorder (DDD)"

consider situation, where i have rs 10...there is one shop selling some stuff for rs 20.. Without thinking twice, i go there and tell him give me that thing - I have just rs 10.. i will give you remaining rs 10 afterwards..And he happily gives that thing to me.. :)

And slowly slowly this world changes... through self purification, transactions are replaced by transformation..there is no currency...when there is no insecurity where comes the concept of security ?

no body need to trust each other.. It is given.. there is no risk aversion, there is no doubt.. everything is just pure and simple..

capitalism...market.... ya.. This existence of earth itself become market for purification of mankind..Value creation gets the new meaning..

I think - I am also getting under Ideal World Disorder !! :)

advanced..50%

2011-04-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

I am thinking about one thing from yesterday.

We went into market to take our photographs.. bill was 100.. and he called us to collect photographs after two hrs.. and then we paid him 50 rs in advance and decided to pay 50 afterwards..And then we felt afterwards that why don't we just trust others... Is he going to give us different photo than what we are ? Then why only 50% advanced ? And now he is going to do same thing with some other person... He will not give anything without advance.. and we are corrupting the world..

What are our assumptions on which we are working in this world ? If i start giving advance 100% with full trust, will that lead to exponential change of trust in this world..Someone need to start changing these assumptions of self-interest, rational, greedy human beings..Otherwise all our strategies will remain just surface level interventions.. We can just postponed the bad end of this world and without really making any big difference...

Can we just pay what Autowala wants without arguing.. Can we just not bargain in market... Can we just stop this system of security deposit for our own rental house.. Can we ?

atleast at some places, atleast at some locations, can we start increasing our faith and our trust in other human beings..?

One need to change his assumptions about this world and world will change.. We need to have correct design principles at place to evolve this cosmos in better world..

FAST

2011-04-08T07:12:00.000-07:00

Experiencing my fast

I decided to keep one day fast to support the anti corruption bill. I am not aware of what this fight exactly is. But I really felt from my heart that this is some good cause – I should support. My consciousness said to me to follow it. As a student of leadership and OB, I am really doubtful whether Anna hazare has enough leadership qualities to read the situation and lead this movement..But at personal level I strongly felt that “goodness” within me should go on fast for one day to support this positive energy. And I did that …

When I was on fast – I learned so many things – I am classifying it at three level.

A] I had constant feeling that I am supporting some real good thing and some kind of positive wave is getting build up throughout the country. I can feel that I am part of this big system and some or other day I will contribute something to it. Although I was alone fasting at my place.. I was never alone !!

B] Then my consciousness told me that there is time yet to come when you can lead anything.. you are still small one learning on your own weakness..It reminded me of all the corruptions as an individual I carried out for this system. I decided never to bribe TC for ticket (which I had sometime), never to buy black ticket and never to save WAT by not having bill.. I decided to improve on these three things as my personal sankalpa’s to improve this system by individual efforts...

C] Then my consciousness told me to go further down. Who I am to think about system when – this “I” itself is corrupt.. It told me that systems will come and go.. what about you..? And I recalled all lies I had told to so many people so many times.. the burning hunger decided to burn my “corrupt I”.. I remembered – how much impure am i.. I decided not to lie those things which I am doing for so many days.. I can’t go back to each one and remove that.. but I can do to my close friends.. I never cleared NDA mains.. I never cleared IIT screening.. these were two most common lies - I was sharing in some different groups.

The hunger fire of one day fast connected me to system level, individual level and also something inside me..The human life is about making yourself pure.. it is about building ego and then dissolving it.. It is really beautiful journey..

By experiencing these Gandhi (More about Indian)way, My faith is surely increased now than the way I used to do only by reading or criticizing…

Either we get excited or we give it.. there can be always some path in between of "learning"..

Life is all about constant learning..

Locus

2011-04-03T03:00:00.000-07:00

What a great day... India winning world cup...

I was watching it @ sports Dhaba in XLRI.. I was able to make some interesting observations and thus some food for thinking..

When Sachin was batting, one person was standing with his one leg on chair.. other person was constantly smoking and not giving even little space between two smokes..and there were so many other people who were thinking - it is because of them (by wearing same t-shirt, by sitting at particular location, by not watching, by doing some or other thing ) that Sachin was playing safely because of their action..:):).. And when Sachin got out, most of them really thought that it happened because of them...

I don't know how this thing will work out - if 1 billion people are responsible for Sachin's outcome :).. most difficult calculations for god..

But my point is something different..

In one direction,

Interesting most of these people - when it comes to their personal life - think that they can't do anything.. they don't have control over their own life..For Sachin to play, they will stand whole day on one leg without eating anything. but for their personal life, they are completely losers...

In other direction,

some of these people will consider their neighbors, friends, umpire, prime minister, calender date responsible for getting Sachin out.. .but in their personal life they will think everything happens because of them.. No external situation, force is responsible in their own case.. as if they have complete control over their life..

Point is either we think we have complete control over our life or we think we absolutely don't have...We never make perfect balance.. Happiness lies in pragmatic shifting of locus either to external or internal event..:)

When Sachin is playing, we do all the things to be happy, if he gets out we mostly forget our contribution and give credit to other person for changing his position.. When he is playing we think - it is because of t-shirt i am wearing.. :) Actually it is all about our perception to make ourselves happy.. Why not shift our locus pragmatically in our own life ? Live life happily.. Anyway - it is so complex, we are never going to understand it.. so use shifting of locus to live it peacefully..

LOVE

2011-04-01T19:35:00.000-07:00

Mother has written about 4 kinds of love – a] you love some material for pleasure, b] you love someone in expectation of return love, c] you love someone till you are getting space to express it. There are no return expectations but you need some token, d] Divine love – where you just love…

Divine love is very easy to understand but difficult to apply & human love happens without any forced awareness but very difficult to understand… Why it is like this?

Initially I used to think possessiveness, security, desires, expectations, attachment and all such characteristics are associated with human love. These things create trouble and are absent in divine love. In divine love – it is just love. So instead of focusing on different object of love that is human and divine – I was thinking that process of love is different

I think love either emerges or creates feeling of security, possessiveness, expectations, companionship. These are part and parcel of the process which we called as love. Now problem is that actually human love can’t give you constant security, possessiveness, fulfillment of expectations…It is really very finite. Either time will get over, people will change, over the time intensity will decrease.. some or other thing will happen. So we are always in constant fear of losing these things that are acting as love. So either one of these things get over – that is security gets converted into insecurity, we lose possession, we lose our companion, we are not able to fulfill expectations and love creates trouble. Even if these things are there – fear creates trouble. Now in case of divine love – security, possessiveness, expectations, companionship everything is there. But you know now object is divine – infinite, permanent… there is permanent security, companionship and possessiveness. There are no chances of these things getting converted into opposite. There is no fear so divine love always gives you constant happiness and bliss.

Now I think divine love is not difficult to apply. It is same human love only object we have changed. Now there is no need to fear, it is going to give you joy full time. This realization also helps you to overcome fear in human love. It is finite one. So you start enjoying present moments and don’t get upset when it changes its form. We need to start loving and enjoying our company. We need to start loving divinity in nature and in other people. Once we have divine love, human love becomes very easy to understand. There is kind of peace and permanent happiness

Memories

2011-02-16T08:19:00.000-08:00

Should one preserve past memories. ?

Are they functional or dysfunctional ?

Are they necessary ?

are they stepping stone or stumbling block..

Do they act as benchmark ?

or each memory is unique and is not connected ?

Do they put one away from living in present moment ?

Solitude

2011-02-16T08:13:00.000-08:00

Today it was very hot whole day.. after evening - it was time for some speedy wind and some awesome climate..I took XL campus walk alone with some silent music...

What experience it was... now a days when i always feel in-secured about 'permanent alone state' that each human being is in...this time it was moment to get connected with nature.. there is some energy in blowing winds, flowing water, rising sun and full moon...something is there.. Although it is difficult to be connected for long time as something inside rushes outside to share all that.. and that moment just breaks..but today it was real contentment...

i am going to miss this xLrI campus after 2 years :(...

Falling leaves

2011-02-15T22:29:00.000-08:00

Season of falling leaves...Time to change :(

Beautiful campus with heavy emotions....................

time to detach from past memories and at the same time excitement for starting new life cycle..

For any one who is in education profession - month of March and April are for saying bye bye...And waiting for June to say welcome again...

Everybody want to be DJ of rang de basanti...

Is there any tree which has no falling leaves ?

Is life of that tree more happier ?

does present exist ? what is ultimate reality..

2010-12-31T11:23:00.000-08:00

There are three types of pain..

a] for something which is happened in past

b] Something you are facing in present

c] Something you dreamed and realized that it will not happen.. broken dream..

I think a] happens when you can't dream well.. if you can dream well, then you will come out of past pains.. but then that may lead to c.. and thus vicious cycle...

I think c] happens when you are really really dreamy and then you enjoy all the dream.. But then you feel pain when you realize that dream is not going to be true.. but then if you have high re-constructive power, you will see new dream... quite difficult, but you can.. or you need to live in present then nothing will affect you related to future in present..but then it can lead to b.. and then vicious cycle... So reconstruction can be ultimate solution..

And for b] , you need to depend upon past good things or future hope.. again both of the things lead to either a or c and hence vicious cycle..or you can face the pain in present...

So ultimately two solutions..

a] Reconstruct... accept no reality exist.. or better to say whatever you construct is reality.. so you construct your happy world.. and this construction need to be highly flexible and adaptive..

b] or Live in present and accept the pains which are in present.. and face then.. but then how to face them.. that i don't know.. i always go for reconstruction..

I think there is nothing like present.. it is just awareness of past or future... so b does not exist,, ans thus reconstruction can be the ultimate solution..

I am !!

2010-12-28T09:25:00.000-08:00

Idiot by choice....

I prefer to be vulnerable..

I know trusting everyone blindly might lead that one day you will be mistrust and cheated..

But then i am at advantage...

I realized that cost for mistrust or cheating from others that you would pay in some cases is always less than cost that you pay for all cases on day to day basis to lie, to not to believe, to monitor all transaction, to evaluate, to doubt, to reject, to avoid, to remain conscious,

My friends, i know i am fool..

But i am calculatively so....i think in wholesome and not transaction-wise..

Become vulnerable - Mission Innocence...Join it !!

The world will be the happiest when everyone is innocent.

explaining it in metaphor

2010-02-09T09:12:00.000-08:00

Life is uncertain.. Life is complex....

Mind is even more complex..

Our mind is originally free.. but we create the habit of putting something inside it from childhood.. then in some years, mind can't remain free. it always requires something inside it. dreamers see some dream which is unachievable and their mind remain permanently busy in it. Some people think of helping others or changing the society and their mind always remain busy in it. Some people get passionated by some goal and by motivation to prove themselves and their mind remain busy.. Some just get dissolve in love and become permanently engaged.

But process is not that simple. With each engagement activity of mind, their come the byproducts. With dream comes the hope for reality, with goal comes the greediness, with service comes the ego and with love comes the expectations. And as we don't fulfill these byproducts we start feeling sad about it. It creates the pain in our life.

Thus it is important to understand that it is mind who wanted entertainment , that is why it got engaged. But now byproducts of these engagements are creating trouble which were never intentional. Thus we should actually enjoy the movie that mind is screening rather than getting into the pain for not fulfilling these byproducts . Secondly these engagements are always substitutable .. Goal can be replace by other goal , dream by other dream and love by some other love.. It is like changing the movie in cinema hall..

Free mind is ideal state. Busy mind is natural state. Pain from not fulfilling the expectations created from byproducts is artificial state. Each human being should destroy the artificial state, and should start the journey towards ideal state from natural state.

Somebody

2010-01-16T11:03:00.000-08:00

Somebody's alarm is ringing continuously for last 10 min. (nice background for current thought process), XL is full live... on first floor some teams are working for MAXI fAIR..(XLRI's one of the oldest event)..Very creative work is going on.. On third floor- drinking party is @ peak... smoking.. drinking.. loud music..dance and completely loosing oneself !! they may have taken drugs..enjoying themselves completely... Ground floor people are celebrating birthday with putting maggy, eggs and bear on birthday boy !!......Bishu da is making parathas continuously and feeding the XLrer gangs hanging out there for their breaks.. Some couple is taking slow walk in chill cold but beautiful xlri campus... Some Ghissus are behind Kakani's assignment- thinking of how will they make it this time.. Some are on phone with their GF/BF and are explaining what was there in dinner tonight...Some are playing badminton and some football in lights....some are already in their bed under deep sleep...some are watching movie in LH...Placecom is busy behind contacting companies and negotiating packages..Committees are coming back after having expensive dinner.....Bahadur is unhappy as he has not got the MAXI fair pass.....I am observing and thinking......

See different things people are doing in one of the busiest place in India. Imagine what our ancient would be doing - when there was so much free time......This was the evolution of concept "Culture".......

Actually this leads to question what it mean by LIFE ?

India poised.......

2009-12-04T09:27:00.000-08:00

After long days,

As i am learning management will start writing today's blog with some figures/data

1] My MBA friends will get salaries around RS. 16-22 lakhs per annum from their first jobs

2] I am getting 25,000 stipend for doing my research and taking the education

3] My Photographer friend is struggling to earn steady 25,000 per month (at this stage, in future he may earn in crores...)

4] My engineer friend (Mtech- non renewable energy resources) is getting salary of Rs 6 lakhs per annum

5] My friend working in IT is getting 5.5 lakhs salary per annum after working for 4 and half years

6] My mom is getting salary of 2 lakh per ammum after working for 20 years in Bank..

7] One of my best friend who can be the best event manager and better manager than most of my friends is struggling to get the job.

8] Mess boy is getting 3000 for cleaning the food wasted by all MBA studs in my mess.

9] Gardners are getting less than Rs 100 for maintaining the lawn where future managers throw their bear bottles,

10] Farmer , 40 km from my college don't get any assured income and sometime Rs 80 per day.

11] India'sPrime minister's salary is..........

and so on... Why is it like that......Except prime minister, i have seen everybody.. so i don't believe that differences in their salaries are any way are related to their skill level or intellectual level. Are these MNC's are bringing new capitalist structure in society ? is it right distribution of wealth ? Where this will lead the society ? What is attitude that will develop in these managers ? what will be the attitude that will develop in the people who are earning less without there fault ? will anybody go for engg in non renewable resources rejecting the HR job? will anybody choose their passion such as musics, photography, arts as their careers? Do we need some reforms in the systems ? Do we need CHE in India ? Alla kasam :), mere dost MBA pura karake job suru karenge tabhi muze es cheej ka answer milega !!!

4TH term "learnings-unlearnings"

2009-08-27T23:54:00.001-07:00

I should have one line common for all the posts on my blogs..

"I am writing after so many days....:)"

Anyway, here are few things i did in last term in XLRI.

1] We had great fun in our sportscom comittee. We started one super league consist of all games. We had a bidding process to form the 4 clubs..and then we started the tournament with 2 events this term. Good innitiative in XL.

2] In SIGMA, we started project school on new mode. We are conducting workshop for students on each saturday-sunday. We have completed 6 workshops this term and we are targetting overall 42 in whole year. We got 100 volunteers. We had clothes distibution under GOONJ. We also started campaign against food wastage in mess.

3] We had a bike trip to some fall about 50 km from JamashedPur. And near about 10 trips to Dimna..And now we are going to bhuvaneshwar (400 km) on bike in next two days...

4] I listened to many good speeches on TED. I had a good collection of poems in last three months. I collected few good presentations...

5] I attended all social entrepreneurship, indian Philosophy, MCCD and counselling lecture without missing single one. I learned a lot...it was fun. 3 of them were without notebook and pen.

6] I made one really self satisfying presentation on self actuallization. It was fun.. I had a few more creative presentations in IPLE and social entrepreneurship lectures.

7] I made one good documetry with srinath on platform beggers.

8] It was fun reading Yayati, Geeta, Developmental Economics, Freud and many more..

9] I had one beautiful morning with hari, near dimna lake reading Geeta..

10] first time many full night outs..no exercises whole term....lot of tea......and variety of friends

11] LONG HAIRS>>>>>>>> i am loosing many for that... but its ok...any how i will loose them

12] More thinking on "Kama Purusha, Swadharma and purpose of life"

13] more empty and loneliness feeling by thinking of future and thinking the world as constantly changing..

XL 2nd year begins !!

2009-06-17T07:29:00.000-07:00

Back to XL !! With great experience of summer project with Basix, again eager to get some more knowledge. This term looking forward at two subjects

1] Indian philosophy and leadership

2] Social entrepreneurship

Summer has created lot of interest in reaserch. Now i need to think about finalising my subject.

Thats it !!

just trying to come back on blog.

Kakani special !!

2009-03-29T07:23:00.000-07:00

God ! we finished our end term for financial management today. I started studying yesterday with Laxmi stotra (as paper was finance :)). then night out and today whole day- study..it was surprise as expected when we faced the end term. This term we only had KAKANI in our life. Whole PMIR batch was kakanized..(new word added to dictionary :)). Here are few reasons for process of kakanization.

1] He creates his own rule and follows them by heart.. as hard as RAJA Harishchandra.

2] Now , term began with kakani explaining class that it is a game we are going to play for next 20 lectures..(Rules defined by him)

3] All lectures at 8.30 morning (it is midnight timming for XL :)). If you r 1 second late , you are out.

4] First lecture 15 marks are deposited to your account. Now game will be played base on reduction and addition to this 15 marks.

5] Random presenty.. Day he feel that there are more than 2 people absent, he will take attendance. And -2 for absent people.. So (you have to present all lecture on time, also he dont have to take attendance everyday)

6] If mobile is on, and somebody calls you... uffff !! -7 marks for you and entire row gets -2 each.

7] Before each lecture - one group assignment based on chapter that will be there on that lecture. Result- you should read chapter , discuss it in group and then only come to class. U will need to spend 3 hrs before each lecture.

8] He assigned one company to each . And we had individual assignment after each lecture based on that company. (Great idea so people cant copy each others assignment) . Result- You read that chapter again after lecture and spends 3 hrs for doing assignment.

9]Now for checking each assignment he will generate no. by random no generator. Say for assgnmt 1, no generated is 1, then that assgnmt will be checked for roll no 1,11,21,31.... REsult- In given 18 assnmt your no. can come any time so that you have to do all assgnmt properly. you cant do trade off. Again good assignment will add 2-3 mark to your deposit of 15 mark and bad assignment can subtract upto 7 marks.. BAAP-RE !!

10] First quiz, - all numericals, options were given very close. Say answer is 16.75. He will give option as a] 16.2 to 16.4 b] 16.2 to 16.6 c] <=16.2.. and answer will be option (e) for all questions saying as "none of the above". Who will dare to answer"none of this" for all question although you calculate right answers.

11] before end term all people have spend 3hr * 21 group assgnmt + 3 hrs * 18 individual assignments + 1.5 hrs * 20 lectures + quiz study + 1 hrs * 26 chapters reading = 173 hrs on finance in span of 2 month.

12] Still everybody struggling to pass, So people studied for atleast 24 hrs before end term

13] end term is - he gave one business standard newspaper. Exam time is 150 min. And we have 55 questions on 55 news spread over all the papers even in suppliment. :)

What else you don't want ???? hihihihihihi

One should experience Kakani rather than going for tirthayatra ! What else u want ?

Dear sir, people may say anything about you.. You are great !!

Latur - Summers

2009-03-25T05:54:00.000-07:00

I am getting one very important break in life. Going to Latur for summers ! Life is going to be complete different out there ! How i will face it ? It is very interesting. What is so big changes are going to happen ?

1] XL hostel - full time with friends around to alone in latur

2] unlimited hot water, beautiful scenary around, nice mess food four times, AC classrooms and library to rain drained area where nothing is fixed abt accomodation, food and all such things

3] 24-hr wifi network to no network

4] 24 hrs electricity, separate rooms to stay --> 12 hrs load shading, water problem and hot summers

5] English, hindi ---> Latur special Marathi :)

6]profit oriented business world ---> BPL farmers and their aspirations

7] dont know what else !!

Fun !!

Can i do few things ?

1] Let have no connection with XL for two months

2] Full time focus on work

3] Travelling in marathavada

4] meeting new people

5] Completely different things than normal schedule

Let us see how it happens - new change !!

Nothing

2009-03-20T15:21:00.000-07:00

Going under one of the most bad mental state of life !!

Be rebellious!

2009-03-17T07:48:00.000-07:00

External environment, long term blindness is killing me. I don’t know what is happening to me. Today I have feeling that I should be rebellious. Just break the rules. Just throw off the system. Just do something not done before. Break your own limitations. Kill the fear, burn the insecurities and do nothing.

Give presentations without PPTs, give presentations without using word strategy, go in shorts to class, don’t shave for months, wear hair band, and ask some basic doubt to professor. And don’t stop till he gives answer. Submit report in the simplest format. Watch movie before each quiz. Abuse front benchers as well as back benchers. Just explode the mind..

We are living in environment where we don’t have any control! Elections are at neck. Leaders are giving some random speeches, Taliban is doing something in Afghanistan, USA in great depression, naxalites killing somebody every day, meaningless bolly wood movies coming out, my classmates are under pressure for their jobs after 1 year, professors are showing egos, daily I am doing something which everybody is doing without knowing why?, Zarakhand villagers don’t have foods for 2-3 days, having love for some girl, looking some very happy families, watching school children playing football, beautiful sunset and birds flying everyday back to their nest..Friends, where we stand in all this ? No control, or so limited control or complete unconsciousness!!

One day I will feel that I should be pure, one day I will find life beautiful, one day I will be emotional dependant, One day I will find it boring, one day I will be like rock star- complete energetic. And another day I will be no where!!

Be rebellious! That’s it…… I want to read some novel like this. I should see motorcycle diaries! Today I have effect of song Gulaal- Aarambh he prachand !!

new learnings last two months

2009-03-10T20:44:00.000-07:00

Learning 1.

We are always driven by imagination that our dream will come true. This is sometime possible sometime not.
Interesting fact is that we are many times more happy by imagination that certain dream will come true than actual happiness we get when dream get realised.
Now, most dreams come to end on negative ends. then we are unhappy.
When we are unhappy , we find some external locus of control. We find some logic saying that current state is more favourable than what we wanted to. But this is not good. Accept the truth as it is. Feel the sadness for some time. And then... How to come out ? ..That is great question. Answer is that visualise new dream and follow it.
Now how happiness can be permanant ? See some big dream which will be unlimited, which will be for others (not self). Then you will be happy for whole life by imagination that dream will come true.

Learning 2

Be pure ! Loosing something by being pure is better than getting something through cheating.
Be what you are ! Dont change yourself for somebody else.
Face the reality.

Learning 3

Happiness is in sharing.
Share with everybody. Dont create dependancy. If people start ignoring you because of your high sharing. Find few more. World population is growing as anything. :)

Learning 4

Nothing is constant. Everything changes. You should be in synchronization with natural cycle.

Learning 5 (combo)

Key to happiness is creating good humor. Laughter. Happiness is not something you achieve. It is what you think !!
Busy schedule is remedy for all problems. Empty mind creates distration

Few practicals

Avoid excessive use of Gtalk ! :) :)
don't analyse so much.. live the movement.. Hihihihihi..
I feel really sorry for emotional dependant people. I am happy to be independant. :)

breaking circles

2009-03-08T06:06:00.000-07:00

"All good things always have end". Santosh told me when i was on mumbai platform to catch train to Jamashedpur with leaving back memorable 6 years with JP youth wing work and looking at new XL life for 4 years. I was literally crying with close 7- 8 friends around me and everybody knowing that this was end. Those days would not come back. Now, after 1 year i still remembers those moments.

Now seniors are leaving campus. I dont have close bonding with all seniors. But yes, footaball team i am surely missing. Same with my volleyball team and few individual members. Fact is that everybody here leaving campus is knowing those days are gone. New life has started. Time cant come back. Today we had last football match and JLT chat. I am feeling too much emotional.

I know, everything will get settled again in few days. That is life !! yes .. i should enjoy it.

one should be like hero of "into the wild". Accept the fact that past will not come again. Take memories with you and enjoy the present !!

no title

2009-03-04T20:05:00.000-08:00

There is always one thing which creates problem in all other things. Our life according to me is like some vehicle, where problem in one part can create problems in all other part. Consider example, when we see somebody not doing work well, we start blaming him or consider him as someone with less quality. But this happens because we see only that part. Many a times that person may have some other problem going on in his life which results in particular behaviour in other parts. Due to my current phase i am learning few things.

1]Never judge anybody based on particular behavior. any human being is always good.

2]Whatever plan you may have, always expect something uncertain.

3] Real happiness is in creating joy at wherever u will go and whatever u will do.

4]tight schedulel is very much important. Try to break all the bonds otherwise u cant give your 100 %.

** today again writiing blog desparately...wanted to write something and i thing, i have written something..Anyway, it will reflect my some learning.

Tablet of happiness

2009-02-25T10:07:00.000-08:00

Last week was very rigorous !! we were flowing together between different submissions and mid terms..Then surprisingly i got today's evening and night free !! I was so happy. I wanted to lot of things to do.. So i prepared one tablet of happiness and i took it with liquid of songs..Here is my report.. As I am under going managerial training, will write it in points.

1] i went to gym. Enjoyed cycling and weights and ultimately SHAVASAN !! (background was english rhythmic music)

2]Then i took my bicycle and went for cycling(1 hr). I went on one road going high up. I drive my cycle in 5 th gear !! enjoyed the pain. And then enjoyed flow while coming back on slope. (background was peaceful tunes !!)

3] I met some unknown person. I asked him some random things. He enjoyed chatting.

4] I saw one tree. I felt as if it is hanging in the sky !! (hihihi). I watched that one for 10 min.

5] then i came back. I called one of my friend, and went to Cafe coffee day !! (background loud music in cafeteria)

6] Then i wanted to go to temple. In between i helped one very old woman by giving money. Then i saw one cow very ill. I bought some banana's and tried to feed cow !!!

7] I came back and made one (bad ) painting in word paint !!

8] I heard summer of 69 and we will rock you in loud volume !!

9]I took bath for half an hr in hot water. Before than shaving and then that smell of after shave !!

10] I had full bottle of water after heavy exercise.

11] Then i did prayer on "Sarve Bhavantu Sukhinaha"

12] I interpreted one of the good poem by Ravindranath Tagore.

13] Then i had pastries from cafe coffee days. Shared them with friends and had chat abt "Pune"

14] I came back and called one of my very old friend with whom i had no communication for long time.

15] I Dreamed abt one movie , in which father would take his son on world trip, and would teach real meaning of life through actual experiences !!!

15]Now writing this blog.

16 ] Going to watch Liverpool Vs Real madrid football match at 1.30

I wanted to share this with somebody. lot of people are around me. I can call any of my friends in pune. But still nobody is there. (background song is my fav lonely song so gaya..)

What is happiness ? I say all above as tablet because i did all that but on back of mind i was enjoying a dream of sharing all this experiences with friends. Real joy was of feeling of sharing. So it is tablet and not state of happiness !!

Ya , I will accept that now my battery is 100 percentage charged but then,

May god help me in achieving real state of happiness in future !!

2 by 2 matrix

2009-02-21T06:15:00.000-08:00

One beauty of management education is that in any subject for most of the concept, their is choice of selecting one of the quadrant of 2 by 2 matrix.. It is all trade off and decision making. there will be two parameters with two values streched and 4 different styles !!

i got one great idea !! i will collect all such 2 by 2 matrices from all the subjects and will put it together and will publish 200 page book "2 by 2 "..And under each page , i will put interpretation of that concept in real life wihin 2 sentences.. !!

Vision statement for my shaolin school will be MANAGEMENT OF LIFE - finding the conficts of free mind. Deciding the trade-off. washing all other quadrants and following your passion !!

Let hope each one will able to implement above statement in their own life including me....

race is on....

2009-02-21T03:50:00.000-08:00

Last two week whole batch was enjoying quite relax schedule very rare in their buzy b-school life..then came the news of bad CRP in campus.. People started feeling pressure..then came result for 2 nd term.. there were quite a few prof in 2 nd term , who gave very bad grades.. decrease in CQPI.. what to do now ? You can't imagine the atmosphere in our batch now. Next week is going to be reflection of all..I am dam sure atleast 10-20 people will be there , who will spend their whole week sleepless.. add on to that we have lot of submission and 4, big 4 midterms..I really feel scary by imagining the next week situation in Xl..

I feel lost in such environment.. How one B-school should be ? They should go to various places and should solve real problem.. If grades are out, nobody should even visit the office as actually study is not grades but something else. I know that people have taken loans and that is the reason why they feel pressure...but anyway according to me these people are of such catagories that resulted in action of taking 7 lakh loan and coming for mba education. My dream of education and what i am actually doing are completely different.. But i have to that.. for first year.From second year , i will study on my own way !!

I had imagined that my XL fellows would be each one diamond having high self efficacy and doing something different.. but there are very few like this.

Conflict and trade off are fancy terms to study in management education...But in real life , what a big role they are playing ? God, give me the power to choose right one..Ya, i will create my own school of shaolin were , i will learn all this.

Leaves and flowers are falling down.. Vasanta (most probably) has started.. What a beauty it is.. XL campus is really heaven.. Why cant we have some Bodhi tree class or JLT katta sessions ? there is great need of dynamism in XL..

Now philosophy is over.. I have a marketing and IR class.. Again back to study of such a system that to lock the people than providing them freedom..?

again after long time !!

2009-02-16T05:37:00.000-08:00

when u start writing after long days , it becomes difficult to write..there are so many things but all trying to go in back up and nothing nin catche ..:)

Recently important activities in life are - XL-IIMC meet cancelled because of shift of placement(global effect on local sport meet :)), conflicts about motivation and learning theme going through my mind, Chilka Sarovar travelling, reading Jungle book again, Sigma conference- vijay Mahajan speech, seniors placement and so on...

First time in six month i am in confused state- feeling the distance from Jnana Prabodhini..

I think manthan is going inside my mind. something will come out after one or two month..Everything going under turbulence, issue of emotional independancy, social entrepreneur Vs Faculty, some thing missing in life - dont know what ?..After this one month and 3 month summer, i am hoping that i will again in no question state..somebody in my college got job for 1600000...What really worth that ? I have seen people working 14-16 hrs and earning 50 rs...What is answer for this ? why it is like this ? And height is that people have ""services"" for serving these people during placement.. I cant do that... I dont understand that..

Good thing is that i can observe myself during all this and can laugh on myself watching as a third person..

One thing is clear, nobody can give answer to your queries. You have to find answers on your own.

pointers continue

2009-01-31T11:57:00.000-08:00

1] I fought with Omaxi for republic day wet night issue, and i was able to do something...may in future i will do some more.

2] I am going under good practice for football and volleyball... ready to fight IIMC.

3] Life going under some different phase,i dont think i can express it in blog.

4] Social conference turning out to be good...

5] Acad complete neglected status.. :(.... plaanning to miss one or miss quiz purposefully to come out of peer pressure and do whatever u want.

6] Gsec election was interesting experience.

7] Kakani rocking, Guru's grade not understanding anything :) , OB no study, other reading lot off !!

8] Cast away movie

9] Tagore's poem..fundoo

10] Chat with Amol...Robaxi Saraswati pujan

11 ] thinking of writing autobiography of common room.. it experiences saraswati puja, dunking, wet night, birtday parties, thrilling matches, night TT, breaking news, group discussion and what not !! it will be interesting.

12] Today i am same as i was after two week.

diary pointers

2009-01-18T07:43:00.000-08:00

Now days i am getting free time but not that free where i can enjoy writing the blog. So today i will write few points abt major events and learning.

Sudden plan (10 min before) and biking from jamashedpur to Ranchi in heavy fog and chill cold in the night
Maxi fair -work- sponsership work, ticket selling work and actual event day work (JP ani yuvi athavala, pan JP chi dhamal vegalich :))
current questions inside the mind - my future life, does i am changing with XL ? , emotional dependance (better word - ownership issue), what is stable in once life ? all the things are changing...
Kakani- one good prof in finance has actually occupied all the life of my batchmates. :)
XL - IIM C meet preparations.

Novelty in life

2009-01-07T06:24:00.000-08:00

First three days and XL life began with full energy. I am enjoying it and i want more and more strech.It is real fun of learning.

Now, considering that i will have this long strech for 4 year :), what will be the novelty in the life ?

or any way for any body what is there that drive it ? i know, i am surely better than most of the people who are flowing with currents or having normal routine but then again what is novelty in my some different or own currents as its again routine ...

So i will like to find that

Noveltty (as early as possible.)

Most of the people live not for novelty but for somebody else. Say GF, wife, childrens or society, or some dream.For all these people its emotions that drives their life.

But

if i am thinking of living life as a learner or one with doing all but filling nothing... i need novelty and not emotions.

Currently i am impulsive and thus positive towards all the learning as well as experiences...but what if this impulse go down ?

i need to maintain this impulse...(convert ac to dc :)..)

last one

if we find meaning in life and started living for that will we loose novelty ?

thus novelty and meaning goes against each other?

now leaving it ,

enjoying maxi admin work, football practice, kakani's work and all !! keep it up GAURAV !!

After long gap - just to start again

2009-01-05T07:43:00.000-08:00

My last writing was on 28th nov. So i just wanted to restart it. Chinmay's writing in Marathi inspired me to write again atleast in english. After 28 th nov lot of learning in two busy week in Xl and meeting all friends and relative back in Pune.

I will write separately on that in one or two days.

Today i have started my third term in XL. i think i am in best mood to learn. I had glance through varsharambha upasana.Best part of trimester pattern is that you can make your "Sankalpas" and re-energies yourself after just 3 month gap rather than year long. :)

I have three big event in XL in next month. Lot of interaction with groups and team. I will finalise my Sankalpa's for this trimester in two days. I want to generate momentum in this week itself.

thats it ! This is just kick start . I hope it will start ignition that will continue for three months.

My India

2008-11-28T06:36:00.000-08:00

I am feeling very low and sad. I am feeling very very angry as all the people of India. I am actually crying....

I know all the reasons , I know the short term reactions, long term reactions, grass root level work and all funda.

I know media is bad, govt is useless, terrorist are bastards. and all !!

I can't see the channel. I can't hear the news. I can't forget the things. I can't control myself.

My dear country,

I want my country to be the best in the world !! We will do all the things required to make our country the best.

Can we make the human chain and go inside the taj in front of terrorist and finish the episode ?

Do we have that passion for our country ?

Will I do that ?

Just now i can't think strategically neither intellactually.

Just now i can only feel the emotions.

And i am felling very bad !! Very very bad !!

Event 3 + 4

2008-11-24T07:17:00.000-08:00

Event 3 : Wall climbing

I did 11 m (average performance) while IIM L guy did 13 m. SO i didn't outperformed others as i was planning to. Still we were at second position and IIML holding the top position.

{MyMind :1] Mental preparation is tough one. I was optimistic for 24 hrs and lost my focus for 2 seconds and lost the game.

2] Play for fun is better strategy for me than play for win (at least for me. Then only i can perform)

3] Now i will start working on fitness .(Not going to happen)}

Event 4 : Raft

This was going to be decider event. Even team standing 6 had chance. We were knowing that who ever would make first raft was going to win. We made it first but then we paid cost for paying less attention to structure and making hurry. As raft got fractures(:)) in between and we lost the opportunity to grab the high point blue balls, Still after initial setback we performed well and we got the overall 3 rd position.

{My mind: 1] Raghav and me had contrast approaches to face rafting. There was not any point in fighting. Should i follow or be leader ? (very big dilemma)

2] Should i be happy for whatever our team achieve or should do analysis of mistakes.

3] No point in back talks after events.

4] I am finding external locus of control }

Today's writing is desperate writing. Not getting feel to write. So stopping. !

event 2 : MAP reading

2008-11-22T09:00:00.000-08:00

Today's second event was somewhat liked treasure hunt added to it map reading and biking ! also trade off between points. We played according to our strength. there was rule that one would crack the puzzles sitting in the room and other two would ride the bike and finding different places using map and clues from one sitting in room. We played on our strength. Saloni was in the room solving puzzles and Raghav joined me on bike. I was riding bike (my strength :) hi hi hi; ), Raghav asking addresses. We understood today that we don't know Jamashedpur beyond Bistupur . So sad !! But it was advantageous to us. One time i missed the return road and luckily we got one place of 400 points.

Any way now we are at position 2 from earlier 5 th position. We should win tomorrow.

{My mind- 1] Saloni is the best at solving puzzle. So she should be one in the room. It worked :) she solved all 7 clues. Event gave us large push to recover.

2] i am bad at solving puzzle. But actually i was able to contribute lot in solving puzzle. Also i had nice initiative for deciding strategy.

3] Now i am feeling i will do the wall climbing and will also play major role in driving raft.We should contribute on our strength. }

WE should win tomorrow.

Event 1 : hurdles

2008-11-21T22:42:00.000-08:00

Event 1 is over now.(hurdle race)

We had average performance.

there were hurdles that are used by miltry for its training.

Three of us failed in rope climbing event. Saloni tried hard for Tarzen jump and mine crossing. But no success.

{My mind - 1] I should have done rope. But when i saw first time i felt i would not. That hammered me, I didn't tried hundred percentage. 2] Saloni is tough girl - She tried really hard. 3] Wall climbing is with 300 point. I should do that at any cost. 3] Power is my strength in the team. I should have done rope also should have help team more. It is all mind game. This is learning, Now i will pass through artificial wall climbing at any cost. 4] There were many times in Jnana Prabodhini we had opportunity to do rope climbing. But i never did it. So there will be many skills which can be useful in life for future. Never avoid taking new experiences.}

Second event is treasure hunt. will start at 1 pm. I am expecting my team to perform well.

SAloni and me are thinking that still we will be the winner. While Raghav thinks "Bolane se kya hota hai, Karake dikhana chahiye" :)

Adventure Questa -mind journey diary

2008-11-21T22:14:00.000-08:00

I have participated in adventure questa competition in college. Its 2 day competition. I am writing this after our first event of first day has been completed. I got one idea to write journey of thought process i will undergo through whole event.

1] It all started with one day Saloni asking me to participate. I was least interested before. But then we formed the team and participated (Team name AGNI ). {My mind completely dispassionate}

2] There were three member Raghav- Saloni- Gaurav. Round one was online quiz. Raghav was out that day. Probably Saloni was going to be out of town that time. I prepared least dispassionately calling Hari for help. Even Saloni was there at that time of quiz. And they both playing different tricks attempted quiz. {My mind- 1] i don't know anything in nature. I can't contribute. 2] there were 95 teams . Out of which 6 were to be selected. So NO CHANCE !. 3] ok bhai, nahi select hote then three days holiday.What big deal.}. I was able to contribute in 3 Q out of 18.

3]Most surprisingly our team got shortleast. Me and Hari were in dancing state.{My mind- 1] one who expect least can perform better. as he is free of any pressure.}

4] Xlenc team try to convince us that you should replace your one member as no other selected team has any girl as member. We decided to go with same team. {My mind-1] its ok to take Bharat or Sreenath. 2] No way, Its Saloni who innitiated the thing. secondly her brain will be our strength. We will have advantage.}

5] One day before I send one mail trying to inspire team. Tried to create common dress code for team, punch line for team. We even searched for some management games. and wall climbing and rafting clips. {My mind -1] We can win. 2] My strength is to inspire team. So i should take initiative.} I thought it worked.

i love this moments !!

2008-11-19T07:59:00.000-08:00

I am totally excited for my future 3 hours. It is going to be a lot of fun. generally people says that the B-schools are very busy And people dont find a time. I too tell like this to my parents many time.(Why i don't know). But really speaking i have a lot of time.

I am currently lying on the bed. It is a slight cold outside. I had one nice glass of a horlick milk. Now i have some packets of "Moong Dal" and "pea nut".Adding to that flavour, some milk chocklates (total spending rs. 20). I am enjoying a some oldie music on the Dhingana.com. And after this preparation, its time to read the book "Sidhartha". Hey, what else the beauty can be ?

The life is like one canavas where you paint your colours. You need to choose your own colours.Generally people looks around for a differnt colours and then copy that colours in their canvas. I have decided that i will only not choose my colours but also will decide my own shades of it.Only a restriction i will have is that my colours will not be costly. Or better say if possible self made.I dont want to waste my joyful time of painting in earning money and buying common colours. !!! For me as above said the colours exist there already. I will just catch them.

I think the Freedom will be the my most prior value.lastly my strengths are visionary,learner, activer (how ?), related and connected according to one test.(hi hi hi... :))

Acceptance of jealousy

2008-11-15T00:33:00.000-08:00

Professor Sreenivasan classes are real learning. Today he asked people that is there any body in class who's never experience jealousy. there were 2-3 people. And then he concluded that accepting and expressing jealousy is the way to overcome the problems that are created by wrong path followed many of the times after feeling of jealous. I think accepting and expressing is the most key step for any mind development( Manasik Vikasana ). That is one of the purpose of this blog.
It is really fun now listening the " dwandwa " between E. M. Rav sir and Sreenivasan sir classes.
It always remind me of one book "Durdamya" where Lokmanya tilak explains this type of friendly fight between professor's in Fergusson college. It is really nice.
I should work on following things now.
1] Understanding the individual differences.
2] Focusing on strengh of any other person and compensating foor weakness.
Both the steps are very important for working as OB researcher or Prof (Fundamental pricniple)
as well as working for non profit organization. In short my FUTURE !!!!

Strive for excellence

2008-11-13T22:45:00.000-08:00

I am studying in XL. Our punch line is Excellence and Integrity. I am finding it difficult to perform on the both.
I am here as Fellow student. My each work and thought should be inline with this. College is paying me as scholar, My all actions and behavior should match this. Not anything wrong i have done (:)).But simply i am not totally focus.
Secondly, I should be ablel to perform all the minor tasks with perfection and should target the exxcellence. But it is not happening. It was so fascinating assignment given by Prof Gurunathan. We even thought on all aspects. We even worked hard. But due to laziness and "Chalata hai" approch we lost the ultimate fun which we could have gain if we had completed the assignment with perfection at each step.
I think,
Excellence = (step 1) passion +(step 2) hardwork + (step 3)Precision and perfection at each small steps.
Intigrity=step 1: knowing your mission.
step 2 :Flowing the mission throughout your body.

My strength that i lerant from this assignment was i love working on short term project work and generally in the team. I hope it can be same with long term project.

Today in Prof. Gurunathan's class i felt at one moment suddenly bad for not striving for excellence. When can be "I " like that what i want ?

I am going to read "Jonathen" immediately. I may get some new message !! :)

Orkut birthdays, Sreenath, Drucker, books and wonderful life

2008-11-13T04:28:00.000-08:00

Ø I had previously thought that there is no point in sending the wishes through orkut as everybody else is knowing the birthday of that friend by the orkut reminder. Therefore all friends send the wishes to him and there is no value to your wish. But then today morning I suddenly realized that we wish on happy birthday not for our recognition but for actually wishing the one who’s birthday is it. So although 100 people may wish by orkut scrap, you should be one of them if your wish is by heart and not for getting you importance. I need to pure mind on this thing.
Ø Today my friend Sreenath ran 15 rounds on ground. It is high example of mental determination one should have. Without previous practice today he started running with the target of 15 rounds. After 3 round he was tired. Then with few breaks he completed 8. Then he had tea break then going back he completed remaining rounds. It is not good from medical point of view. But it is best achievement motivation I have seen in near past. He loves giving pain to his body. Hats off to my friend.
Ø Today I went to the library and read 4 books simultaneously. One was on “How to read a book” ?
I got nice stuff to think.
Books are of three type :
§ General (information based)
§ Useful for reading, but after reading you feels that you know more than what the book say.
You will feel that I have completed this one. And I will really never read it again.
§ Books which each new reading give new thinking to you. You think that book is growing with your mental growth. E.g. Geeta
Say, you have to go one island where there are no facilities, no human beings. Which 10 book you will take with yourself. ?
Ø I saw the movie “It is a wonderful life”. Nice movie which says there are no failures for one who has lot of friends. (No extra comments)
Ø Nonprofit organization although having more financial restrictions, have their functioning align to their mission statement. Vice versa for the business organization. Secondly the volunteers are getting replaced by the unpaid professionals these days. This is future trends for this sector.(Peter Drucker)

120 rupees= 90 pages

2008-11-04T12:00:00.000-08:00

last two days were amazing, spending them in all spiritual places. right starting from AMOL's room(2 nd ramakrishna) to the actual place were Vivekananda meditated. I tried hard everywhere for mirracle to happen..but sometime it was cramp in leg, some bee trying to destract me, some kid running around me or sleep.. some or other reason avoided me to get that transition. Any way i tried hard.
whole three day story will be boaring to write.(although nice to experience). So i will write the last experience. While coming back , i decided not to spend money on any food.(actually i was short of money so i decided to test it). Next to me was sitting one man enjoying all the food whatever it came in my compartment. Whenever he stopped any seller, i had immensed desire to take that food. then i decided i will read the no. of pages equal to no. of rupees he would spent in entire journey. I had huge satisfaction after that and also great motivation. I finished 90 pages of book "practical spirituality" while that man spend amount= rupees 120. Whenever he finished one type of food, he had more desire for next type of food. While whenever he would finish one type of food, i had real joy of controlling my desire and real satisfaction of reading the book.
I learnt from this experiment that real joy is not in satisfying the desires but in postponing them or avoiding them. You can eat the pages (off course by reading) and have more joy than food.
some random thought i had during journey ehich i recollect are
1] Happiness requires money if you are in hurry. That is if you are master of time you can enjoy the happiness irrespective of money.
2] Auto takes rs 80 from XL to station (around 6 km), train takes rs 20 from tatanagar to khadagpur (around 140 km) and cycle rickshaw takes rs 40 from station to iit kharagpur (around 6 km). Nice economical thought to digest in recent days. I will write on this some other day.
3] you should be like railway. When you are running have full enthusiam, making lot of noise and cutting the winds and when you are still be like railway standing in yard.(i think i miss the idea which i had at that moment)
4] In india, women are always respected atleast while travelling in general class or buses.
5] People have immense faith in God in India. But they lack the faith in themselves. We should work out on this.
One more dream,
I should travell around the whole India for period of say 3 month.

So Gaya...

2008-10-30T09:54:00.000-07:00

I am listening the song "so gaya...". I never pay attention to words. I always get influence by tune of the songs. this song create some emotions in me. (I can't explain what are that). Ok, below from my window i can watch couples in XL going for walk :) .

Is this bad or good ? Other than physical attraction, i dont believe in emotional dependancy theory. Supporters may argue that it is sharing but then why it is only with one particular ?

i dont know answer.At this point of time i purely feel that its dependancy. One should generate happiness by sharing with any body.

I want my philosophy of life as the one who is totally emotional independant but fully social.

As i will work with people (this is not answer for "why HR" in interview. ), i should be totally involve in them still away from the attachment. i should enjoy dettachment. I have all the best friends having girlfriends. They all have good girlfriends.(I mean to say, some of them may read this :).

One good movie "Into the wild" has one good sentence. I dont remember it exactly (as usual :))
but hero says one of his friend while leaving him that i will surely miss you. but i will enjoy the new experiences and people. So while leaving i will never be sad.
My test of emotional detachment is that, when we will complete two yrs in XL, my all regular MBA program friends will leave the institute. I want to say them "BYE " with full emotions still smiling.
And when i will back , i should start working immediately on OB research with full passion as if nothing has happened. And still in two year , i should be one with full of love and care.

I dont know such types of dreams are good or bad ? where they will take me ? but i will follow them.

LIFE

2008-10-29T04:02:00.000-07:00

I am listening the best song "Tu jinda hai". Sitting on my bed. Watching out from my window, birds flying, sun ready to set, greenery all over the campus and very pleasent atmosphere.
what else is the happiness ? Yesterday night , we had long walk in nice cold , cup of coffee and long chat till 4.00 clock. What else one can have ?
Thing is that if you decide to be happy, you will find joy in whatever you are doing . Its really good feeling to be in such state.
Sreenath got placed in WWF . Nice thing is happened. Let everybody get what they want. Let the world be full of joy and happiness.

Diwali Celebrations at XLRI

2008-10-28T09:31:00.001-07:00

This is first diwali without family. You understand the importance when you are away from it. But still XL is the best. We went to all faculty houses to eat different sweets. Everybody was greeting others and first time i found all with the real feelings. But their was some shade of sadness painted on it as everybody was missing someone. Festivals !! What it mean to society. It is very important part of society. We can't leave without festivals. I went to buy crackers. Our college spend around rs 10,000 on crackers. I found slum area children looking for scrap crackers out their. XL was lightened with thousand of diva's and 2 Km away 100 of people are thinking about their tomorrow's food. We have sweets and sweets till we are getting alergetic to it and on same time i found people on road sitting there without any food. Everybody in XL celebrating and still missing. GOD ! why it is like that ? What is the answer ? Is it wrong to have that question ? I cant be without celebrations. So XL diwali must. But same time i cant forget so many havenot people around me. I can't. If i decide to have balance, I will miss have world when i am with havenot's and i will feel sad for them when i am in the have world. What is solution ?
their is possibility for partition of emotions ? use you C drive for have world emmotions and vice versa. I will become the bridge and i will show the way out. I will be the one connecting the people..(ha ha ha this is line from some add , i think Airtel :)). But how ? God, give me the power to find the way.. WHY , HOW and WHEN ?

create your own currents...

2008-10-27T06:43:00.000-07:00

When its Diwali outside all over the India, Xl is in the deep insecure feeling..Market is down and 180 students will compete for 60-70 prestigious companies. Everybody is under immense tension. Whether they will get placed first day or they will require to itfight for 6 days. Finally it will be difference of around 10,000 between two. I am thinking why i want to be away from this race

1] Because i am frighten for competition ?

2] I dont have abilities ?

Absolutely wrong !!

I believe in my director's theory. their are always 3 choices with you.

1] Flow with currents

2] Flow against currents

3]Create your own currents.

I am of type 3. I will create my own current. It doesn't matter me if i fail afterward. At least i have made my choice. And I believe that i will do anything what i want. Secondly why you should be so insecure. their is again one more theory

1] Go where their is scope.

2] Create the scope where you want to go.

I again believe in second theory. I will create the scope where i want to go. Really i should not care about others. I am the TIGER. why I should think of rats..? Oh.

I will be the king. Need to beat the LAZINESS. I want to create my shaolin school. !!!!

SHUBH DIPAWALI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shubh Dipawali

2008-10-26T10:16:00.000-07:00

Today Hari and I went for cycling. Actually i wanted to buy one "Moti soap".See the brand and attachment created by moti soap. I remember the Moti first, symbol of Dipawali. So we were searching it in the market and firsttime I was very much angry on Jamashedpur because i didn't found Moti anywhere. :(
Anyway we met one ballon sailer small boy outside the moll. We took two baloons from him (rs. 10 ) and gift him back both. He was very happy. I started my Diwali celebrations in real joy. Whole credit to Sreenath as i just copied his idea.
I have one sandle soap with me. Sugat and me are going to share it. (Half- half). Although he is scientist, he follows good RUDHI (traditions). We are planning to wake up early and avoid NARAKA on holy morning of Diwali. Hope we will be successful in our tomorrows mission of AVOID NARAKA..

MY roomie(Gaurav) has bought some good DIVA's.. He is really good roomie. We both are going to study now.(I think we will be doing something else within 10 min.)

Help them who can be helped !!

2008-10-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

Sreenath(he is just to sign out SIP and going for WWF , I am proud of him) and me were discussing the movie "into the wild" and one important point was that " you should help them who can be helped ". I had interview with "Vijay MAhajan" head of Basic bank for SIP. I am going to do summers in Marathavada. I will provide sustainable livelihood to some landless labours there. I am totally excited now. My friends are congratulating me as i am out of SIP. But i am happy because i made my choice. i was thinking that i will start working once i finish my research after 4 year. But now i have one point that i will start working in Zarakhand once i start my research simulteniously. Superb !!

thats it.. No new experience to write.

Oh , one more..I met one cycle repairer ..He had his store below one tree from last 16 year. Now tree has grown up large one. It was very interesting chat. these are the timmings i enjoy my life a lot. Actually I always !!

Creative tension

2008-10-17T10:40:00.000-07:00

prof. Jomon discussed that we all work only under deadlines because of tensions. I got one good idea from that..We should able to generate creative tension in our life to win the laziness. Another way is to create rituals in our daily life so that we can conquer the laziness. By the way hari and me are trying to wake up early for last whole week but we are not. This is called as "Knowing but not doing". "knowing to doing"course has maximum demand in harward. :)
Today i attended seminar on action research on poverty allivation. There were 35 NGO representatives. Only 2 hours to discuss , it became mundi bazar. We discuss tomatos of patamada , mashrooms, 1 rs- 20 paisa , partnership, hopeless goverment and all except poverty.
I understood the importance of faciliator and clearance of idea. NGO's are loosing there integrities seriously. Only one good point generated was that poverty related with social structure. And living with people more effective than doing only project.
Prof. Srinivasan's lecture are superb..I am feeling realy happy that i am OB fellow. Todays good thought was rather than changing reality, change the way you look at the reality.(Cognitive restructuring). Shubharatri !! (Yesterday we have completed one assignment from 9 pm to 9 am continuous with one maggi break) I cant type more now !

competance or committment ? relationships or task ?

2008-10-11T07:42:00.000-07:00

Today i learnt that OB is all about finding whether chicken first or egg...it was very interesting lecture by srinivasan sir with full of fun. He gave us example of child eager to do all the work.For them work is play and thus joy. And this is because work is there choice. Its really very simple and effective theory for life. Always choose your work !! What i feel is dilemma is always at managerial level. We are learning managerial OB so this is what useful to learn dilemma. But when i will go for research or will apply OB for life, it should be above dilemma - unique truth of life.
I am going through very different phase of life with lot of eagerness to learn.I hope I can maintain this state. It should become part and parcel of my life.
I learnt one new concept that '' mind has one central idea and all other thinking processes flourishes on it " . If you don't have that idea, you are bound to face chaos. But what if your mind contains more than one central idea ? your brain and mind should have then partition
technique. ok going anywhere.
Another thought is that, me and my roomie are very good friends. We dont have any issues. But when we are inside room, we are both in our own worlds. What type of relations will be there in between us after one year. ?
Sreenath is watching movie in which one guy solds everything and donate everything and starts new trip. He is very excited abt that idea(control sree !).. Sugat is thinking abt why he left research at Tata and join MBA (man but animal), Hari is filling that he would join FPM course sometime in future.(I hope it should be immediate), my roomie is now frightened with any placecom mails (:)), Today everybody was happy with pepsi PPT as they gave free gifts.
Reju feels OB is BAKAWAS... But see what huge OB stuff i have now with me.. Thats enough otherwise i will stop writing blog in one or two week.(HAARI UVAACH).

Sharing dreams !!

2008-10-10T01:57:00.000-07:00

Today morning i was going through C. K. Pralhad's article about India@75. There was one good point made by him that India has no share dream or aspiration after 1920-30's independance dream. I think i should work on this aspect. Can it be possible to have my research topic as creating common dream to whole country.? What level of knowledge i will require for this. But one or other day i will surely make it.
Todays Prof. Gurunathan's lecture was again interesting one. It was about choosing relational benefits rather than transactional benefits. He made interesting point that whenever he ask for examples nobody gives their own examples (Proof that rather than following "SWADHARMA" people goes for loosely said "ARTHA".) Also he mentioned that this type of people are generally reseacher, teacher or NGO's people. I am happy that I am all of three. But thing is that these questions are interesting to have class discussions. But what i feel is that answers for them can be obtained only by self experiment, self analysis. You have to find your own answers !!
Everybody else on campus is deeply engaged in their SIPs, while i am writing blogs, reading books and all. I really should not care abt these things rather than hating them. People will do these things as it is their choice. I should more concentrate on my choice. And i thing i am achiving this level.
Yesterday we visited "Chandil Dam". We had speed boat ride. I want to take experience of "Upasana" in deep ocean, high mountains, speedy wind, and dense forests. Sahich !!
I want to buy following things after my savings.
1] Jipsy
2] Tent
3] lot of books
4] Now, one boat :)
5] One bunglow and my own farm in village(few Bhaise !!).. I dont bother to stay in one room in town.
Can teaching profession and organization work will satisfy my these basic needs. Actually i dont bother abt it. I knows my capacities. I will follow my passion...

Joke VS Concept

2008-10-06T09:27:00.000-07:00

Today i had one interesting lecture by Prof. Jomon in HRP. We were learning concepts of different HRP model. As usual Ramaswami, Hrishi and many more guys were sleeping. So sir changed teaching to discussion abt differences between concept and joke? joke makes you laugh while concept leads to yawn ! Why ? actually concept is explaination with all logical steps without missing single link. While joke is all logical steps with one assume link which is not there and which at last create humour. I had never think of fact that joke and concept are two ends of single rope. Actually when I will become teacher, I will use joke to explain concept.
While I was teasing Hari, for lot of PPTs and Gyaan sessions , he was completely assertive with the process. He pointed out that every thing is learning and enjoying for him. Even PPTs , summer gyans and making resume ..this was new learning for me. I always enjoy doing my things. But now onwards i will not condemn any body other doing any other thing. Then only I can be more develop. Actually This is new dimention of Independancy I got from Hari. Lot of work still needed to become Independant.
(Today is Dandia night...I need to take experiece of XL culture.Another fact is that what i wrote yesterday abt Robin is now null and void. As sugat jumped on me to prove that robin never had brown spot but it is some other bird (some X or Y).. I hate you dost ..(Someday i will tell you the name of bird) )..

My first bird watching..

2008-10-05T04:57:00.000-07:00

Today morning Sugat wake up me at 8 a.m. and we went for bird watching.(According to him there is no fun in watching but actually it is in identifying ) For me Even watching was difficult. First we waited on teres. I heard lot of sounds but watch none. Then suddenly I was happy to see one bird.. But Sugat identified it as "Crow".But still my first catch gave me lot of pleasure.
Then we went through MDP and then through small Jungle near XL..I was trying hard. All birds were calling me "Common Gaurav, look at us" !! and I was watching with blanck sight all the trees.. It surely created interest in tree watching. Many times I watch out the birds and Sugat identified them as Maina, Dow, Pigeon, Parrot...(I doubt him). Otherwise Kaushal and sugat had some golden birds as (I dont remember their names :)) Any how i managed to survive with these bird watchers for 2 hrs. A new fun for me. But I loved watching Robin very closely with brown spots on his front side.
Anyway i have now some photos with branches and bird flied away.I still feel no use of identifying birds..Real pleasure is in watching them. May it be crow or parrot (Till the time ,I cant find any other..)

2 A.M.

2008-10-04T13:39:00.000-07:00

Its 2 a.m. in XL now...I cant sleep yet. As you know every B- school generally work in nights. They watch the sunrise and then only go for the bed. But today its different thing. We have "WET NIGHT", Good concept by few scholars. If we ban drinking inside campus, student can make problems outside campus (bound to happen), therefore why not to allow student to do all non sense and FUN(:)) inside campus ? So there is official wet night in the common room (Room where student should interact and share there dream) for every 2 weeks. This can be awarded as the most innovative idea of the decade (may be century, i dont know the history.) It is the oldest comittee on campus (OMAXI : DRUNKERS).
Ok leave it apart !
Today I learnt the IPN need theory in OB. Can I define some ideal man concept ?
Can we define some benchmark in all these tests which is must for the man to be the harmonious part of society..?
I think these tests as part of a self development. But then what can be my benchmark ?
Can there be substitute for dance ? Are these parties(stuff like that) are compulsary part of society ? How can we define fun ? All boring part na ?
leave it !!
People are asking me to come for party ! So better I switch off lights and think some innotive ideas .
Shubharatri !! (Last one, French- German are here in our campus as part of exchange program. We have shown them senior night, wet night , sunday parties..They are happy. Feeling as if they are in there native place. But what can I do ? Most of people in campus know only this as India.
One more, We have Start up and social sector included in summer . !! XL is full of Contrasts. It is difficult to find matching color.....:))

SREE GANESHAY NAMAHA

2008-10-03T07:57:00.000-07:00

Namaskaram ,
My first writing..Entering the new world (for me) of bloggging.
I have following reasons to start this.
1] No need of diary.
2] No need of Laptop memory.
3] May in future , I can share my experiences with somebody.
4] General feeling (I read just now , one of my friend's blog)
(Tips: Please ignore my grammer and spelling mistakes)

Today i had good OB lecture by Prof. Sreenivasan,
I want to learn as much OB as I can. I am feeling OSSOM interest in it ..
Ok thats it. One of my hungry friend (Sugat ) has called me for dinner in our great mess. Need to go !!
this begins my new experiment !! Bye.